It leaves a little scar everytime you leave, sadness fills my soul because for some reason my brain tells me you will never come back.
Please stay with me.
Never leave me, I can't survive without you.
Can you stay with me? Twiddle your thumbs if I get boring? Just don't leave, please. I'm sorry I'm like this, I just love you.
I'm sorry, if I do get boring. I just want to feel your warmth, you will never be boring to me.
Sometimes I hug myself to maybe mimic your touch, it never works though. I just miss you, the only person to love me. But never myself, because I'm not sure how to yet.
I know it sounds weird but I wonder if you really love me, it's not you just my dumb mind. Why does it do this to me? You give me all the affection I can receive and my brain tells me you don't care.
I wish I could express how much I love you, it's just kinda hard to. Its not at all that I don't love you, it's just I have a hard time expressing how I "love myself" so I'm not sure how to love someone else yet. But I am sure, very sure, that I love you. I just don't know how to show you yet.
I never feel clean anymore, my body is a warzone. But you, you find a way to make it go away. The stinging from my wrists just suddenly stops. The itch goes away, it all just stops.
It's like you stop time. Your touch, it freezes me.
I'm not exactly sure how, but you make me want to love myself. If someone as amazing as you loves me, I must be pretty awesome.
I never thought of myself as beautiful or even acceptable, but then you came along and changed my mind.
It's so strange, are you some kind of god?
Others may not agree but I sure do think so.
Honestly It doesn't really matter, you are still the most amazing person in my eyes.
Its crazy, how I feel this way about you but not an ounce of respect or love for myself.
Just know, I will always love you.
You are perfect in my eyes.
