Married But Secretly Waiting

•I've made mistakes - MBSW

Jelena's POV
I run inside the bar once I parked my car. I looked for Florence immidietly thankfully she's just sitting at the front while begging the bartender for another drink. I ran up to her and I hold her.

Grabe naman maglasing 'tong babaeng to. Kulang nalang siguro ay lumobo na yung atay niya.

"Come on Flo, let's go home" I said.

"Gewt owff me! Pwedwe ba mwiss, don't touwch me, I awlready wike someone ewlse" (Get off me! Pwede ba miss, don't touch me, I awlready like someone else) mataray na saad niya habang tinatanggal yung kamay ko sa braso niya.

"Florence it's me Jelena. Let's go home love" I whispered at tumingin naman ito saakin.

"Ewlle?" (Elle?) She touched my face while I nodded.

"It me love, let's go home" Agad naman ito sumama.

Hirap na siyang makatayo dahil sa kalasingan kaya kinarga ko nalang siya in a bridal style at inupo ko siya sa passenger seat.

Kinabitan ko muna siya ng seatbelt bago ako pumunta sa driver's seat. Binilisan ko na rin ang pagdrive pauwi pero hindi naman ako umabot sa speed limit.

Gusto ko na din kasi maiuwi si Florence dahil alam kong pagod ito at kailangan na niyang magpahinga.

Pag karating namin sa bahay ay binuhat ko siya saaking kwarto at hiniga sa kama. Naglabas ako ng damit na pwede ko ipahiram sakaniya, kumuha na rin ako ng malamig na tubig para may mainom siya.

Pagka pasok ko sa kwarto ay umiiyak na si Florence. Naririnig ko ang pag sinok at singhot nito.

"Hey why are you crying?" I asked. Hindi naman ito sumagot at suminok lang ng suminok.

"You can tell me sweetheart. Bakit ka umiiyak?" Mahinhin kong tanong sakaniya.

"I hwate myself" (I hate myself) she stated.

Huh? Hate herself?

Why?

I don't understand.

"What do you mean Kenz?" I asked and I sat down beside her.

"I hwate myself fwor falling fwor someone who's mawwied. You know Jewena Weaielle Acoszta?" (I hate myself for falling for someone who's married. You know Jelena Reaielle Acoszta?) Tanong niya.

Alam kong ako yung tinutukoy niya kahit nagiiba ang paraan ng pronounciation niya dahil sa epekto nung alcohol na ininom niya.

"Yea, what about her?" Tanong ko naman.

"I've made mistakes, but falling fwor wer and bewing her mistwess was the most unforgivable mistake I made. It was wrong but it felt wight when I'm with hwer. I shouldn't fweel twis way towards hwer but I can't hewlp myswelf" (I've made mistakes, but falling for her and being her mistress was the most unforgivable mistake I made. It was wrong but it felt right when I'm with her. I shouldn't feel this way towards her but I can't help myswelf) she said.

Kahit lasing siya ay naiintindihan ko pa din ang sinasabi niya.

Kumirot naman ang parte ng dibdib ko nang marinig ko yung mga salitang iyun.

"I lwove hwer, she lwoves me but we met at the wong twime. She's already mawwied to that fuck boy, Adrien Acoszta. I dwon't even know what she saw, to mawwy thwat animal" (I love her, she loves me but we met at the wrong time. She's already married to that fuck boy, Adrien Acoszta. I don't even know what she saw, to marry that animal)

Dagdag pa niya.

Wait-

Sh-she loves me?

"I want hwer all to be mwine b-but that won't hwappen because I don't wanna ruin thweir relationship" (I want her all to be mine b-but that won't happen because I don't wanna ruin their relationship) sininok naman siya at sinandal ang kaniyang ulo saakin.

"Oh my love, you would never ruin our relationship. I don't love him, I would never choose him. I want you be mine too, all mine. A little more time darling, and I'm finally all yours"

"I never wegwet meeting and falling for hwer, what I wegwet is I lwet myself fall fwor her mowre and thwat I'm lwetting myself be hwer lowver knowing she's awready mawwied" (I never regret meeting and falling for her, what I regret is I let myself fall for her more and that I'm letting myself be her lover knowing she's already married).

"Shhh, don't twell hwer I towld you thwis. Pwomise?" (Shhh, don't tell her I told you this. Promise?) She held her pinky finger up and I lock mine on hers.

"I promise I won't tell her" we lock our pinkies together for more than a second. "Let's get you ready for bed, sweety. But drink water first" I help her hold the glass then I change her clothes after.

I was about to leave at sa guessroom matulog but she held my hand.

"Stway pwease, Miss. Don't lweave me" (Stay please, Miss. Don't leave me) she looked at me with her pleading eyes.

I lay down beside her and she cuddled into me.

"I would never leave you my love. I never planned too, and I never will" I kissed her forehead and I also close my eyes drifting myself to sleep.

I know she's already asleep since her breathing is calm and light, she looks so peaceful right now.

Have a nice dream, babylove. Dream about me, dream about us, my dearest Kenzie.