Mixed Signals..

Part 1 The Start

First day of my junior year and I'm so excited , but at the same time I'm nervous . why you ask . Because today is the day I see my crush Ryan again it was like yesterday how I use to stare helplessly at him in 3rd period and he use to catch me it was so embarrassing . Its so hard to keep my cool when he looks at Me and wink .

(walking down the hallway just thinking back in time when I suddenly hear a scream) .

I look up to see no other than my best friend Tasha running down the hall way with open arms to me .

Tasha darling I screamed and she ran and jumped on me .

How are you Tasha ?
I'm good and you ?
I'm good just excited and scared at the same time .

So anything special happened over the weekend ?
Yes gra Becca ( Tasha comes close to Becca and whispers this to her * I lost my virginity *)
Becca screams loudly and people look at them weird .

Becca be quiet geshh people are looking and calm down ill tell you all about it in lunch.

Alright Alright I'll hear later.

We go our seperate ways to homeroom
And in my home room there sits Ryan in the back of the class with his squad . I try my best not to stare and I find my seat in the front of the class .

Sitting in home room I wait for the bell to signal its time for first period.
Mixture of laughter comes from the back of the class and I turn to look and Ryan is looking right at me . I turn quickly trying to hide my face as it turn bright red and I'm cheesing like an idiot .

Finally I groan as the bell rings and I rush out of class to avoid Ryan .

Fianlly reached first period and as I was walking in I felt a grip on my wrist and I turn to see my friend Alice standing behind me. I hugged her firmly .

She is the only popular person I talk to and that would talk to me .

Hey Alice how was the summer ?
Good yours ?
Good
Guess what ?
What ?
I seen Ryan today and he was looking at me. I swear I lit up like a light bulb . He is so fine gra .
Lol calm down . Did you tell him you like him yet ?
No way hell no . I'm too scared not scared but he just seem like the type to take things the hard way and not the easy way .
What the hell you mean ?
I mean he wouldn't let me off easy he'll just tease and lead me on but drop at one moment I don't what to call it but it isn't something I'm ready for .

*Lunch Time*

As I walked into the lunch room people looked at me and I rushed into the lunch line to blind in and to get the attention off of me.
In the line I seen Tasha so I called to her and she came in line with me. So we moved up in line.

Tasha you need have some talking to do about what you did in the summer.
Hahaha!! Alright I'll tell you but let's sit down first Cuz theirs listening ears and we don't need rumours out there .
Okay
We walk to our table after getting our food and on my way I seen Ryan licking his lips and looking at me lustfully.
I turned away and keep walking while bitting my upper lip.

Alright so here it is.
You know Josh
Yes you mean tall dark skin josh the one every cheerleader droll over .
Yes him so we was texting for a while and he was telling me how he liked me and when we had classes together he would fantasize about me and him

Mhm haha Becca*chuckles *
What's funny?
Nothing just thinking about some things

As I was saying he told me these things and I felt the same way so we set up a date and I went over to his house and let me tell you when he kissed me it was like fire on my body . he started touching all over me . Then he took his shirt of and I took mines off and he kissed me and kissed my chest and around my nipple softly then he lightly nibbled on my nipple and I arched into him. After that he trailed kisses down my stomach and when he reached them top of my pants he slowly took them off and took his off , and when he grabbed the condom I told him to go slow cuz I'm a virgin he whispered in my ear " don't worry baby girl this will be the best you ever had ". Then he slide in and I was in heaven it was pleasure but pain.

Damn Tasha what a moment
I know but its the past I want us to be more than fuck buddies I want us to be together.

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