the idols dark diary

Debut

This story isn't based on any particular idol but what they might be going through. This will be written from a males perspective.

Tuesday 23rd march 2019

I was finally going to debut, all my life I've worked for this. The long draining 18-hour days are now officially over. No more am I eating half a cabbage a day to lose weight. Although I probably should continue that for a week or so more, I want to be the same weight as my hyung. Who's about 58kg, so I have around another 10kg to drop before people point out how fat I am. I don't want the group to fail because I can't stay away from my food.

The staff seem a little cold and standoffish but maybe that's because they don't know us that well, I'm sure they will warm up to us soon. Its not like they hate us. We haven't done anything wrong. Me and my hyungs have been very polite to them, even offering our food to them. When we get lots of fans, I'll be sure to buy the staff really nice things to thank them for standing by us.

Yesterday, i was told by the staff that we will be filming a short video to introduce ourselves to the fans. Im a little nervous. This is my first proper time in front of the camera. What if i say something wrong? Do I just say my name and where i came from, or do I need more than that? Hopefully, the hyungs will help me out a little, They have been really helpful so far.

Saturday 27th march 2019

Today was a long day.

It started off at 4:30am with my hyungs alarm blaring. Then at 5am we all piled into the van with our coffees. At 6am we were all sat waiting to have our hair and make-up done. At 8am the cameras were being set up, and the set was being made. An hour later, we were standing in front of the camera, signing our introduction. It didn't stop there, though. As soon as the filming stopped, we were rushed out and driven to our companys building to start recording our debut song.

Our manager was so strict and didn't allow us to do anything until our song was all completely recorded. We didn't finish it until around 11pm. All that's left now is for the producer to put it all together. Hopefully, he does a good job with our first song, so we can rise to fame and become icons like shinee and exo.

Considering idol life doesn't feel much different than traniee life with the packed schedules. It was a decent day, i had lots of fun with my hyungs, and i hope that continues. Although, the staff dont seem to be too kind to us. Throughout the filming, the staff was laughing and making fun of us the whole time, not even trying to make it discrete. The few times i caught eye contact with them, they would look me up and down and scoff. It wasn't just me who noticed it either. The filming crew was visibly disappointed with our staff to the point they threatened to call our management.

Friday 15th april 2019

Today is the day. I've been so busy i haven't had any time to write, so im doing it now, on my way to the company.

We have finished filming the music video for our debut song, and we are on our way to film our reaction in the company studio. Im quite surprised how quickly they put everything together, but i guess when you're with a big company, everything happens so fast that you dont notice it. But i can't wait for the release of the music video. They dyed my hair red for it. Hopefully, they edited me to look 10x better than i normally do.

Our trailer did quite well. It reached 250 thousand views, and we have already gained a following. It's only small, but i love every single one of our fans with my whole heart. I noticed a certain one of my hyungs is getting attention from the fans hearts too and i couldn't be more happy for him. He really deserves it. After all, he is our leader.

Im nearly at the building, so i should stop now, but i promise to write more frequently. After our debut, I'll have more time to spare.