More than a women

I think I'm ready

I dressed Josiah in blue swim trunks to match my swimsuit "I'm a little nervous I've always been his mom and dad. He might not like Brian or Brian might not be good with kids and find this as a dealbreaker, or he might see me in a swimsuit and won't like me anymore" I told Tatyana "if he really is like how you described him then he won't care he'll be all over you, you look sexy as hell you got the milf Status if I were him, I would be all over you and if he doesn't see you for who you are or how beautiful you are then he must be blind and an idiot" I lightly chuckled "thanks for that" "you know I got your back, now come on I want to find a fine ass man for me to have relations with tonight" she wiggled her eyebrows "please don't do that you look like a horny Caucasian teen doing that" "you ain't had to do me like that na" "whatever, he should be on his way" "I'll go get j" "okay" I checked the two bags I had making sure I had towels a cover-up sunscreen and snacks "I got a little buzz on my phone only guessing it could be from Brian "are y'all ready" I asked "yes momma" "been ready stay ready "now Josiah remember don't go where I can't see you and if you're in the water make sure one of us is with you and be respectful" "yes mama" "okay let's go" Brian was leaned against his car "i got the bags" he took from my hands a pop the trunk, so it wouldn't be crowded in the car I got Josiah and his car seat adjusted and went to the trunk to talk to Brian "thank you" "for what" "being chill about me having a son taking care of me drunk most guys don't do that" "I'm not most guys" I started to laugh "that sounded so cheesy now that I hear myself say that" "well, maybe I like cheesy" "and maybe I like being cheesy" "you are a dork, I like dorks" I kissed him was it expected no but was it good yes the feeling of his soft plumpish lips against mine felt like I was on Mars "mama are we going" "yeah it's too hot to sit in here while y'all bring nasty "think we should go before the toddlers in the back get antsy" "I heard that" "good" i hopped into the passenger and Brian turned on the radio, and it started playing ring the alarm Josiah knew the song and started to recite it with Tayana "sing Mr. Brian " Josiah said in a song singing voice. Brian was humming but not quite singing "ahh I don't really know this song" he looked like a deer in the lights "come on Brian I bet you're a amazing singer plus look at Josiah"" he looked at Josiah, and he started pouting trying to get Brian to sing and that he did and let me tell you it wasn't bad he actually did a sum sum
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we finally made it to the beach after two hours Josiah was anxious to play in the water and Tayana was anxious to find her fbd meaning future baby daddy her words, not mine Brian went to the trunk to grab the bags Tayana and Josiah ran to the water she's like a super-sized 5-year-old "Ya need help" "Nah I got it "Brian said as a ball fell into the street" ill get the rest "We found a nice spot under the sun with a little shade and set up chairs the coolers the umbrella and the toy bucket "you ready" brian asked" "for" I raised my brow Brian crept towards me while looking at the beach and I could already see the idea forming in his head I turned and started to run straight ahead, but he caught me and lifted me over his shoulder and ran straight into the water I saw soaked from head to toe "I can't believe you just did that" I splashed him, and we ended up doing until I yelled for Josiah and had him help me splash him he started to scheme with Josiah and my son turned on me "I can't believe you betrayed mama" he started to do a cute little evil laugh" momma I'm hungry I guess it is getting close to lunchtime" we got out and started to eat some fruit and pasta salad with little hugs barrels "You got some pasta sauce on your face" I told Brian "Where" "ill get it" I wiped it off, and he kissed me Josiah turned over and said "Are you, my new daddy" Brian started to choke on his food" Josiah where did you get that" I questioned him "all mommies and daddies in my class kiss and you two kiss"" how about we make some sand castles bring changed the topic after a solid 7 minutes of silence "he's good with Josiah, and he looks like he loves you already "" stop playing Tayana" "just think about both of y'all long term make sure you're ready" "I think I am he's amazing and fantastic with Josiah he took care of me and barely knew me and saw me covered in throw-up and wanted to go out again he doesn't care about my mom bod" "and you didn't do it, girl, you got magic I think I sense a man who needs some company" she left, and I just sat there this whole time I've been thinking of what could be negative and not the things I know and one thing I know is in not gonna let me insecurities stop me