unwanted thoughts

REFLECTION

shame is what I feel when I look in the mirror,

my bodys too big,

I wish I was thinner.

I want to give up,

there's no light in my eyes,

all because,

there's no gap between my thighs. 

battles in my brain

that left scars on my skin,

with thoughts like mine,

how can I win?

pills in my system,

tears down my face,

there's no way to achieve the life that I chase. 

isolate myself from the world,

keep trying to hide,

if I disappear one day,

just know, for you - I tried. 

[written June,4 2023]