Desire of the Past(NOT EDITED)

The Truth Revealed

ANALISE POV:

Before making my way out of the Colise building, I stopped by Mr. Monad's office. Knocking on his door, I entered.

“Mr. Monad, if you do not mind, could I please have a copy of the document I signed this morning.” I asked him.

That he was surprised by my statement would be an understatement. He was bewildered, as if it were some high profile document, which I was only meant to sign and then never look at again. But he quickly regained his composure and said “Sure, Analise. But before handing it over, I would like to know, that is there any particular reason behind looking at it now?”

“No, Mr. Monad, I just wanted to be familiar with all the clauses that are listed there, so I do not beach. I did not read them in the morning.” I assured him, not wanting him to get suspicious.

Nodding and accepting my reason, he took out the copy of the document from his cabinet and handed it over. Thanking him, I made my way out.

I had considered asking him for the original and then destroying it, but I knew that being the Vice-president, he would not do such a foolish thing and just hand me over the original; besides Lincoln would have surely told him something about this. He had been shocked when I had asked him for it, after all.

I walked home silently. The fresh air helped me clear my head a little bit, though the headache that had been nagging my head since afternoon, had not ceased.

Kissing Lincoln had told me, that I was not as immune to him as I would like to be. I had convinced myself throughout these years that, I had gotten over him and I hated him. But what had happened today had proved me wrong; maybe I still felt something for him. I could give a name to the emotion at the moment though.

With time, I may acknowledge my feelings for him to myself, but never to him. I could not let him break me again.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I did not notice I had reached my apartment. I let myself in and sat down on the sofa with a huge sigh. After hours of thinking, this afternoon in my office, I had decided that I would try to find a loophole in the document and see if I could manage to wiggle out of this situation and if I could not find one then I would have to continue working at Colise. Just because of Lincoln, I could not afford to put my career at stake; the very thing because of which I had been alive all these years.

Shaking my head, I opened the document and started going through it. Whoever had drawn this up had done a flawless job. There was not a single loophole anywhere, nothing that could save me. How could I have been so stupid to sign something without reading it? There was that bloody clause, in black and white which had been my curse; I could just foresee what a wonderful legal-adviser I was going to be.

 I read it again and again in the hope that maybe I had missed something but each time turned out to be a disappointment. Finally letting my frustration and anger get hold of me I threw the file on the wall opposite and started crying. The tears which I had refused to let fall in front of Lincoln flowed now with a free reign.

I cried like that for hours and somehow crying after all these years, broke the wall I had built around my heart and mind and all those painful events from the past came rushing back.

*TEN YEARS BACK*

Lincoln and I had been dating for three months when the bomb dropped.

 Those three months had been the most wonderful time of my life. He took me to dates, clubbing and movies. We had never passed the stage of smooching and touching each other fondly; I was a tad bit too shy for that.

It was a Friday evening and the Gregshaws had come to our house for dinner. Marissa had also come home, so it made the dinner a little more special than usual, since, it was our normal tradition to have dinner once together every month, so I did not find anything odd about it.