Under The Moonlight

Chapter 16: Perspective

Perspective

Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different

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Kayden pov

It's true.

I had been avoiding her.

My wolf wanted her and to some level I was also drawn to her.

Yesterday just proved that fact.

And that was a problem.

I didn't need, no, I didn't want a mate.

And, no.

It's not for my own selfish reasons.

I just...

I lost my trust in the mate bond long ago.

I just can't see myself going through that.

The pack members have suffered enough because of a very flawed mate bond.

I spent the entire day in my office.

I spent an hour just looking at the damned safe.

Today for the first time,I felt like I should burn it and get it over with.

I took the key and with a click, the safe swung open.

I picked up the photo frame.

The same set of eyes stared back at me.

I can't believe you did that.

Why did you have to do that?

I talked to the photo.

I needed answers.

I said, my eyes turned misty.

If you had made different choices maybe I would have had different feeling towards my mate.

If only I could go back in time and confront you the day that it happened.

Before I could dwell on it further I heard footsteps down the hall.

I hid the safe beneath my desk and quickly sat down on my desk.

I rid my face of any remaining emotions or unwanted tears.

The door opened and the fruity smell hit me.

It was her.

My moonlight.

She called my name.

I stayed silent.

I had to stay silent or my voice would betray me, spilling out all the emotions swirling in my mind.

"Kayden." She muttered again.

I could tell she was turning more agitated.

So I cleared my throat and put on my cloak.

The ruthless alpha, as everyone thought of me.

It's better if she thinks that.

I can't go soft.

"I have told you before and I'll tell it to you again, I respect privacy. Knock before you enter." I spoke up.

She asked me what I was doing.

I knew she was referring to my behaviour that morning.

But I evaded that and replied that I was working.

"I don't understand us. I mean you are my mate but you don't want me to be. Yesterday you seemed like you changed your mind. I mean you were possessive for god sakes. Today, you act like I don't even exist.Why the hot and cold behaviour,Kayden?" She said.

Her breathing had turned ragged like she was on the verge of tears.

That thought affected me more than anything.

But I had to remain calm.

I looked at her and didn't say anything.

I know I'm not the best mate.

Hell.

I don't even deserve to be called that.

I'm pretty sure that she had cried more tears because of me than anyone else at least in the last week.

It's true, yesterday was a moment of weakness for me.

I wanted to be close to her.

But I couldn't help but think what would happen if we were not to work out.

I would spiral and I can't risk that.

She was everything I would have wanted if I wanted a mate.

She was smart, beautiful, and yesterday she put up a tough fight in the arena.

The arena, her wearing my hoodie and the adrenaline of all of those factors as a combination made me lose my sight for a bit.

I can't do that again.

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Author's note

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