He said we had a love affair.
What have I done?
Ang huli kong natatandaan ay ang maikling kwentuhan sa pagitan namin ni Papa, wala na bukod roon. Kaya laking pagtataka ko ngayon nang sabihin ng gobernador na dalawang buwan na ang lumipas.
Paroon at parito akong naglalakad habang hinihintay siyang lumabas nang maihatid na ako pauwi sa Mansion. I need to talk to my grandparents; I live there. Alam nila ang aking mga ginagawa sa nakalipas na dalawang buwan na hindi ko maalala.
I'm sure they know what's happening to me; impossible na hindi dahil bantay sarado ako ng Lolo at Lola tapos nariyan pa si Papa. How did I let myself get involved with a married man? For God's sake!
Maraming pumapasok na pwedeng maging dahilan paano't naging nobyo ko siya, karelasyon at kabit niya ako. Una, marahil ay lagi siya sa mansion kasama si Papa kaya nangyari ang ugnayan dahil madalas kaming magkita.
Ikalawa, inakit ko siya dahil sa angking kakisigan, itsura at hatak na hindi kayang i-resist ng aking pagkatao.
O ang Ikatlo, nilandi niya ako at bumigay naman ang aking mahinang loob rito.
Hindi ba naisip ng gobernador na kaibigan siya ng aking Papa and... I'm still too young! Kinagat ko ang aking mga daliri dahil mababaliw na ata ako paano nangyari lahat.
The door of his room opened, revealing him looking devilishly hot in a white button-down dress shirt and oxford blue slacks. I avoid his stares as much as I can. Maybe it's true that we have a relationship since I did fancy and imagine things about him after I saw him in the club.
Though there's not a tiny bit of memoir to recall to prove it, there are photos taken that I'm doubting now if they're fake or fucking heavily edited.
Pero nawala rin naman kalaunan ang interest ko when I find out that he is married and has four kids, older than me. His sons and nephews were close to my older brothers and cousins. Mas gu-gustuhin ko na lang na Isa sa mga pamangkin niya o anak hindi mismong siya, Governor Martin!
Nang nasa tapat ko na siya, I step backwards a bit because he is towering over me with his 6 foot plus, must be taller or what, and I'm not comfortable with how my heart is thumping loudly seeing him this close.
Napakaganda niyang lalaki, what other words should I use to describe his features? Quit praising him, Arsinoe!
Huwag naman sanang dahil sa mukha, laki ng katawan at tangkad niya ay pumayag akong maging kabit. Fucking hell, Arsinoe!
"Let's go, Baby." He tried to hold my hands, but I moved away from him. His jaw tightened and his lips turned into a line, but he didn't say anything. I've been here for two days in a secluded place where he brought me. May tatapusin daw muna siyang trabaho bago ako mahatid.
Wala akong nagawa bukod sa manatili sa kwarto at kusina. Ayaw ko siyang kausapin o tignan, he will bring foods into my room and place a bouquet of tulips that are my favorite flower beside me in the bed, but I kept silent for two straight days.
Whenever he struck up a conversation, I hid myself inside the comforter. I covered my ears because I felt sad every time I ignored him. If it's true that we are in a relationship and I'm his mistress, heck, we both need to stop this!
Only my family knew that I was so fond of tulips. Hindi ko ito sasabihin kanino man unless we are really close or I trust him enough! Kahit madalas siya noon sa mansion dahil kay Papa, we seldom talk because I'm avoiding him too.
I have a small bag but no phone. His security surrounds the whole house. They were armed with high-caliber weapons, so I didn't dare run away. I just waited because I believed him when he said he'd bring me home.
"Does my father know about our affair?" I stopped, giving a few feet of space for both of us. Gusto kong malaman bago ako umuwi kung alam ba ni Papa.
"No." He immediately answered me.
Hinilot ko ang aking sintido; of course Papa wouldn't know! Ang bobo mo naman, Arsinoe. They are best friends, hindi papayag ang Papa kung alam niya. What am I thinking? Humarap ako sa kaniya.
"Ang Lolo at Lola ko, do they know about us?" Napalabi siya. I already knew the answer by just looking at his reaction.
"Yes." Maikling niyang sagot. Malaking katanungan sa akin bakit hinayaan mangyari ng grandparents ko na mapunta ako sa posisyong ni sa hinagap hindi ko maiisipang pasukan.
Humangin ng malakas, ang buhok ko ay sumabay sa ihip. Agarang kong sinikop ang medyo kulot at maalong pulang buhok para itali. Lumapit siya sa akin upang kunin ang gomang panali. Ako'y hindi nakahuma kaya hinayaan ko itong sikupin lahat. Tila may karerang nagaganap sa aking puso dahil ang bilis ng tibok.
"Every time the wind blows, you complain about how it ruins your hair and makes you impatient to tie it in a bun." His voice is low enough for me to feel flustered.
