Under The Moonlight

Chapter 28: Ruminate

Ruminate

To think deeply about something

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Kayden pov

I was getting weaker as the days passed by.

My wolf had started to detach himself from me.

My body craved my Moonlight.

The damn mate bond wouldn't leave me alone.

I was conflicted about what I should do.

I vowed the day she left that I would never accept a mate.

My brain was signalling me to just reject my mate and put this whole thing past me.

But my heart was telling me to run to Moonlight and apologize to her as I explained the reason behind my actions.

Two polar opposite choices.

The first few days I could see Moonlight's determination to make us work.

But she seemed closed off since the last few days.

Every time she looked into my eyes they reflected hurt.

Did something happen that I didn't know about?

I knew that I didn't have the time I needed to make the decision.

In my heart, I knew that I wanted her.

But I just couldn't bring myself to accept a mate.

I just couldn't risk the pack's welfare and safety.

My problems just kept on piling one on top of the other.

First Aurora and now Chris had been pestering me since the past few days.

I heard a knock on my office door.

I groaned as I muttered a 'come in'.

My eyes were shut as the person came in and sat opposite me.

It was probably Jason.

I should tell him that I really didn't have the energy to discuss about pack matters but that would mean that I was becoming like them.

I couldn't.

I didn't let myself have any excuse to put aside pack matters.

Whether I was sick or travelling, the pack always came first.

"Kayden." I heard a voice say.

I snapped open my eyes and there sat Chris .

This goddamn kid wouldn't leave me alone.

"It's Alpha to you." I gritted out through my teeth.

"Do you have something to tell me?" He questioned.

I looked at him, in disbelief of his audacity.

If he wasn't Jason's cousin I would've murdered him a long time ago.

He acted too aloof with me.

I've punished him several times for his lack of discipline but he refused to change.

God this kid, he was only 16 but he was too gutsy.

"Are you forgetting that I'm the Alpha in this situation?" I replied rubbing circles on my temples.