Our Secret - Tom Kaulitz

Our love must stay a secret.

Tom looked at me and Bill, he focused on Bill and Bill let me go backing up a bit. I stared at both of them, this is getting awkward. Tom turned his attention to me. "Did she say anything else to you." I gulped. "Uh, yeah but.." I glanced over to Bill who had stopped smiling and was just looking at me, his eyes seemed sad or maybe just tired I couldn't tell. "Maybe you'd want to talk about it.. alone?" It wasn't so bad, just from what Bill told me I didn't want to embarrass Tom in front of Bill, loving someone is such a sensitive topic I wanted him to feel comfortable around me if anything. Even if it wasn't true and she was just making me think things I still wanted to know, we had only just met it was impossible for him to love me already, not that I wanted a relationship with him. I don't even know what I want at this point. A relationship or Friendship?

"Oh.." He seemed to understand which confused me, his voice was low and his eyes looked at me with such sadness almost like how Bills did. He turned to Bill and back to me. "Maybe we could go somewhere private? The race is over for tonight anyway." Tom sounded so nice, not scary or pushy nothing. But it still wasn't like how he seemed a few days ago. "Okay.." I paused, I wasn't bringing him to my house but I didn't want to go to his house alone either. All the cafes and restaurants were closed now and a park would be even worse. Bill saw my face, almost like he read my mind and all my fears. "Maybe we can bring your friend to our home so you won't be alone? How's that?" His voice was so reassuring and nice, he sounded so genuine it made my worries slightly fade, if Lin was there I'd be fine, she may be a lady but she knows how to get guys and even girls away from her and me when we feel uncomfortable. "Okay, that's fine." I gave a weak smile, I was still scared to go to their house but if Lin was there it'd be okay.

"How about you go get your friend and then we'll meet you over there okay?" Bill pointed to a corner, it was a small hill with a tiny road and it was most likely where they came in and out from after each show. "I'll have someone wait for you both so you aren't walking there alone, this place is all blocked off but it is dark." He was right, the area wasn't lit up all the way so it was dark but that was probably good that way people wouldn't follow them. "Alright, I'll be back.." I smiled at them both and Tom gave me a soft and honestly cute smile. Bill gave me a very wide but adorable smile and before I knew it they were on their way to their cars, waving at the crowd that were already leaving the second they hit the bright lights where everyone could see them. I however crept along the side where no lights were. Georg waited for me. "May I?" His voice was deep but soothing. "Mhm." And with that he gently picked me up by my waist and helped me up and over the barrier before carefully putting me down. I made my way to Kali and explained everything the best I could, she thought for a bit but agreed.
She flashed her pepper spray at me quickly and I chuckled. "Just in case!!" I laughed a bit more and once more people left someone opened up the barrier and we walked by, everyone on the other side were already gone but there was a very sweet girl waiting for us. She was blonde and had cute hazel eyes and was pretty tall and slim. "You two are Lin and Lina ja?" We both nodded. "Perfect!!" She walked us to Tom and Bill who were waiting at the corner with their cars. Before I knew it the girl was gone, Tom assured me that she was fine and just went to Gustav.

"Which car?" Lin smiled and pointed to Bill who smiled and opened the door for her to get in. Guess I'm going with Tom! He was leaning on his car and once I reached him he opened the door for me and I got in, this is a lot better than being thrown in.. "Look at us Tom, two beautiful girls in our car after a show." He jokingly whistled and I giggled, Bill is really silly.
"Jaa" Tom chuckled and they both got into their cars.
"Ready?" I nodded and he signaled for Bill to start going and with that they both started driving to their house, the street lights were beautiful and I made sure to remember every turn just in case of anything. I looked at Tom who was focusing on the road, his expression was calm and it made me slowly relax my body. I can trust them, I think.

Eventually we made it to their house, it was pretty big. Tom shut off his car and got out, slamming the door making me flinch. I wanted to yell at him to be careful with his car because it looks hella expensive but I didn't. He opened the door for me and held his hand out, I took it and he helped me out. What a gentleman. I saw Bill do the same but Lin was practically red with how much he made her blush, making me giggle. I didn't even realize Tom was holding my hand.
They led us up some stairs and we got to their living room. "We'll stay here okay?" Bill reassured me with his eyes that he'd be here waiting and Lin did the same, they both sat on the couch and turned on the TV.
Tom led me up more stairs and up to his room, it smelled nice and the street lights lit up the room plenty. I noticed a guitar in the corner, it was clean with absolutely no dust on it. "You play?" I smiled and he smiled back. "Yeah, it's a small hobby of mine." He sat down on his bed and asked me to sit next to him, I did.

"So.." He played with his fingers, he was nervous I could tell. "What did she say?" I looked down but he continued looking at me, I could feel his gaze. "She said you loved me. But she said you loved me for my body, not my personality." I sighed, it ached to say that, I was already insecure. He gently grabbed my chin, his face was soft again, his eyes looked so lively and they drew me in, I never got the time to look at his face fully. His nose was so perfect, his lashes and eyes were so beautiful, his lips made my heart skip a beat and just everything about him made me feel differently than I did with any other person. "That's not true" He thought for a moment, almost like he was mustering up the courage to say something. "I do love you Lina, I'm sorry but I do." His voice seemed so serious. "But not for your body, even if we did meet only a few days ago and we don't know everything about each other I know I do not just love you for your body. Your personality is lovely, everything you say and how you say it draws me in. You make my heart feel weird but in a good way, you make me happy even if youre mad at me just being around you makes me feel good." He sighed, slowly letting go of my chin. "Lina, I really do want you, even if you don't want me you just..make me feel like I'm more than what I think I am." I gave him a weak smile, my heart began to cry and my eyes began watering as I just remembered what he just said.

"You love me?" My voice was weak by my tears. He loved me for me?

Even if we had just met? He loved me? A man as handsome as him loved me?

"Yes, more than anything. I don't know if I should but I do Lina." He looked at my lips and back up into my eyes, his eyes were so mesmerizing and I wish more than anything that I could stare at them for forever. The TV was loud enough that I knew no one could hear a thing we said. "I think.. I love you too Tom." I paused. "But you're so famous and I'm nothing. We couldn't possibly work." I sighed, reality hurt. He liked so many women it just wouldn't work. "They wouldn't have to know, they don't have to no one does not a single soul not until we can tell people. Not until we are ready."
This was all happening so fast, I didn't know what to think, but I didn't want to lose this.
"And what about the girls?.." My voice grew more quiet. He stayed quiet for what felt like forever each second passing killed me. "I'll stop seeing anyone." His tone was serious and my heart jumped, my stomach was killing me but it was definitely butterflies, beautiful wonderful butterflies. "So, will you go out with me?" This was such a weird place to ask someone out, in a dark bedroom with your best friend and a friend sitting just in the room below. Being asked out by a famous racer was something I never thought would happen, but my heart wanted this, I didn't consider my brain.

"Yes."

And just like that, what was supposed to be a simple talk ended up being the beginning of my secret relationship with the famous racer Tom Kaulitz. I prayed with everything in me in that moment that this wouldn't end horribly, or end at all. He made me feel special, and important, and loved all in just a few hours.