When i first laid my eyes on you, i felt something inside of me. I didn't know if it was the drugs inside of me or what. But then i noticed every time i looked at you i got that feeling. We got partnered up together in a group and i had to start a conversation. I was trying to get the whole group to talk but no one did but you. I was zoned in on you the whole time, i was more focused on our conversation than anything else in the world. I could see the faces of the people in the group realize what was happening but they were too scared to say anything or do anything. They just let me have my way with you, they were curious to see where we would go.
Some time went on and i was coming over to your seat after class every day in that period. Then i saw you at homecoming, all alone and i was tired and sweaty. I walked up to you "Are you all by yourself or would you like to dance?". You said, "I'm not much of a dancer, i'm introverted" so then i sat down next to you and you could see that i was tired. I was still vibing out to the music, having a good time, making jokes, and i asked if you wanted a water cuz *gentleman status* and i came back with waters for the whole table. I unbuttoned my shirt cuz i was sweating super bad and wanted to lowkey flash my physique. And i took off my belt cuz i was just on something that night, and some teachers walked over and said i had to button up my shirt not even realizing that my belt was off but i was trying to get that on as fast as possible. I get my belt on and started buttoning up my shirt and then they stayed around for a little bit so i said i'd be back and james and i went into the dance circles.
I come back and i'm dancing on the chairs for you and it slips from under me. I play it cool and keep dancing like i planned for it to happen. We end up just talking for a bit and eventually you asked for my number and i felt my heart fly out of my body. I hand over the phone and i look down and see your number with keileigh attached. We hang out until homecoming was finished and we each go home and i don't look at my phone for awhile. Eventually i get to james's house and change clothes and think to check my phone. I start texting you and you text me back and we have a conversation as i'm sneaking over to my other friends house. We keep talking for a bit and eventually you go to sleep, i was so excited by everything that had happened that night, it felt like home. Being at a "show" with music blasting with you and dancing with a bunch of people.
I wake up the next morning and we continue talking, i knew i was getting myself hooked on something. I felt something inside of me was off, it didn't feel like i was myself. Over time the more we talked i could feel myself becoming happier. I realized how soon my final day would be, and i was overthinking whether or not to commit to it. I wanted to take my life but i wanted to continue talking to you, i didn't want to let such an opportunity just go, just leave. It was 8 days before that day and we had already discussed me leaving my girlfriend to be with you, and you text me saying that your boyfriend had just dumped you. This was my chance, i broke up with *the name that shall not be said* and i asked you to be mine. You said yes and i realized i just got out of my abusive relationship, i just entered a new part of my life. I was so happy, i was jumping up and down, rolling on the floor with laughter like a maniac. I knew we were destined to be, you even said i love you and called me daddy before we were together. Over time you let me express myself while changing me slightly everyday and making me more positive. Bringing me positivity and making me enjoy life, putting me into a new environment i had never been in before.
You brought me to your house to meet your parents and i was nervous but i felt deep inside that this would be the last time i would ever have to do this for someone. I met them and it felt as though i would be seeing them a lot more, a lot longer in my life. I met your siblings and it felt as though they could be my own. I would write about you in poems, and i made poems for you. Your parents would see some of them and they loved it but they still didn't like me. We would send dirty messages to each other in french, so that your parents would have to take extra time out of their day that they didn't have to see what we were saying. We would watch movies together at the same time spots while being on call so that it felt as if we were watching the movie together. It felt as though i had everything i ever wanted. And now in 3 days it will be 9 months since we've been together and i couldn't be happier. You've changed me so much and i couldn't ask for anything better. Thank you for sticking with me and dealing with me, your amazing. You're perfect for me, i love you my sweet darling<333
