True love saved her

Chapter 4, sarah's suicide.

*Sarah's P.O.V.*

That was it I felt like I was done. I was honestly just ready to end it all I just wanted everything to be over and done with and I just wanted to be out of everyone's hair. I felt like I was useless, unneeded, and unwanted. The few friends that I told, when I told them I just said that I was done, I don't want to do this anymore, that I love them, and I'm sorry. A few of my close friends called me multiple times asking "are you okay?" or "please don't do this". I felt like I was... Only loved because they wanted me around because they didn't want to feel like it was their fault but I do believe that they did care. And I'm thankful that they try to stop me but I wasn't going to let anything stop me this time I was going through with it and I knew that. I even had a few people on Instagram direct messaging me trying to talk me out of it that's when I met Nathan. I had been crying for hours, I was honestly just tired of crying. I laid in my bed for hours. Just constantly crying to myself, I put my phone far away where I had no temptations to pick it up & have someone try to stop me. After laying in bed for many hours trying to figure out what to do and how to do it I went to where we keep medicine and picked up bottles that I knew you weren't supposed to mix together, Poured about 30 or 40 out into my hand. I got a water bottle and swallowed about 10 pills at first, waited a little bit and when I didn't feel anything I swallowed about 15 more. At that point I had swallowed about 25 pills. About 15 minutes after that I didn't feel anything still. I was still crying. and I still felt useless, unwanted, and unneeded. So at that point I decided to take the rest of the pills, I put them all in my hand. Then I took them two by two with water until I swallowed them all. Then I just laid there and waited for them to kick in. I finally started to feel something and next thing I knew I drifted off. I had to go get my stomach pumped at the hospital and they kept me there overnight for watch. I cried at night wishing that it worked and I had never woken up. My mom text my friends that had been texting me constantly asking if I was okay or if I was still with them but yeah she text them and told them that I was okay and that I would text them with details when I could. When I got out of the hospital I text my friends I told them that I was okay that I just needed prayers. didn't see any of my friends until I went back to school and then that was hard because people were staring at me and then talking behind my back. That was something very hard to get over and to try to get past but thankfully I had my parents and my very close friend to help me recover. I didn't cut for a while but as that while went on I just got weaker and weaker. I didn't know if things would get better and if so I was wondering how soon. Hoping that it would be sometime very soon because I was honestly just tired of this feeling.

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-Author's Note-
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