Call of Duty One shots

Choke - SoapGhost

Summary:

Although Soap always fell asleep in Ghost's arms, he always woke up alone and the two slept separately.
He didn't understand why Ghost wanted to sleep separately, because he do not have a problem with Soap.

But at one evening, where Soap is going in Ghost's room without knocking he found the answer.

This story is inspired by the song "Choke" by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME.

TW!
Childhood trauma
Rape
Abuse
Choking

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"Ghost...?", Soap opened his eyes, when he noticed that his boyfriend was not lying next to him.

Although Soap always fell asleep in Ghost's arms, he always woke up alone and the two slept separately. That's why they usually slept in Soap's room, because he is usually the first to fall asleep. And if he did fall asleep in Ghost's room, he would carry him back to his room.

Soap accepted that Ghost wanted to sleep separately, but it hurt him a bit, especially because he didn't understand why. He thought maybe it was because he was talking in his sleep. But Ghost actually found it cute, he confessed. It often happened that when they were cuddling during the day, he would fall asleep and Ghost wouldn't take him away. He snuggled up to him even more, making sure Soap could sleep in peace. Even after several hours, he waited patiently until Soap woke up.

Only in the evening, the thought of sleeping together seemed to bother him. Since Ghost wouldn't tell him why, Soap had to accept it.

"Fuck," Soap searched his entire bed for his skull plush, which Ghost had given him.  He apparently left it at Ghost's place.

Quietly he walked to Ghost's door and went in quietly without knocking because he suspected Ghost was already asleep.

"Simon, what the fuck!", shocked, Soap ran to Simon and jerked his hands from his neck, as he saw that Simon was choking himself.

Automatically, Simon's body gasped for air. Before he even realised what was happening, he fainted.

It was not uncommon for Simon to choke himself to sleep. He didn't know how else he could fall asleep. As soon as he closed his eyes, he was tortured  by the cruel memories of his past. He knew he should stop, but it was like an addiction.

Shocked, Simon woke up when he heard his mother screaming. Carefully he put his little brother Tommy his hearing protection on, so he couldn't hear the screams before he went to his parents' bedroom. Quietly he looked in and immediately regretted it.

Simon's father was brutally raping his mother.

Traumatised by the sight, Simon let out a sob. He winced and slid to the wall, as his father came straight at him when he noticed him.

That night was burned into Simon's mind. He would never forget how his father had beaten him up particularly brutally. His mother had begged him to let go of Simon when his father started choking him into unconsciousness.

And that's when it started, his father going on his neck for every little mistake. Because of the fear he had of his father, he couldn't sleep at night. But after he had tried to strangle himself to sleep once, he could sleep through the whole night. And this then became his habit, which he could not break until today.

That was why he wanted to sleep separately with Soap. He didn't want Johnny to see how pathetic he was.

When Simon woke up the next day, he found himself in Soap's arms. Tired and confused, he looked up when he felt something wet dripping on his forehead.

His heart ached when he saw it was Soap's tears.

"I-idiot. Why are you doing this?" he asked hurt, hugging Simon tighter.

He had taken Simon straight to the medics the day before. Even though they told him that nothing would happen to Simon, he was afraid.

Simon wanted to look away, but Soap took his face and forced him to look at him.

Simon's body tensed at the thought of his past. He wanted to run away, but Soap deserved an truly answer.

He sighed and snuggled into John's arms a little more before he started to tell him everything.

It was not easy for him. He felt just as helpless and wounded as he had then, the only difference being that he felt safe with John. John gave him the feeling that he could let all his grief and more run free, which he did.

Soap hugged Simon tighter and gave him time to let out everything that had built up over the years.

"I'm so sorry you had to go through that," he gave him a kiss on the forehead and rested his head against Simon's.

"I'll do everything in my power to help you, dear."

Simon took John's face in his hand and pulled him down into a kiss.

"...Do you want to sleep in my room tonight?"