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-CRRK- the sound of the window creaking.

-What time is it?-I hissed

Oh , fuck ! It's 12:00pm , I'm late for school but no worries it's the last day of it , getting out of the room  I stopped for a sec.

- No , no , not again! - I whispered in a desperate voice , the house was reversed, a liquid poured all over the floor , broken glass everywhere, and my dad laying in the corner of his room, he got drunk yesterday again , when is he going to stop doing this ? It really does affect me .

I really am happy that I went out yesterday cause I know that I wouldn't have been able to live this again.
Since my mom left us [I was 6yo] the only thing my dad kept doing and still do is getting drunk and coming to my room to beat me to death cause he's angry and his day went bad so mine should be bad too , a part of me is happy that my mom left cause I can't see her suffer anymore , all the things she've been through were hard but I will never forgive her for leaving a child with a monster in the house while she did know what he was going to put me through , I got used to it but I can't do this anymore , I really can't , I'm just a little girl I should not be living in this hell like this .
Time passed , I didn't go to school I just sat in the corner of my room waiting for him to come cause I know what is waiting for me , I accepted my destiny.
02:12 am
I heard the door creaked, I went to my bed and sat getting ready mentally for what's coming for me .. after a few minutes , my dad knocked on my door , he never did , walked to me and gave me a deep hug without saying a word  and just walk out of my room after.
I jumped off the window as he closed the door , couldn't think about anything else but run , till I fell in the middle of nowhere and drowned in tears , suddenly I felt someone's arm wrapping me , I didn't move , what else worse can happen to me , my life is already fucked .

-Are you okay-he whispered.

I recognised the voice, it's him , the man in the shadows but I refused to believe it was him so that I won't run again like I did yesterday , his big arms around me made me feel safe , I never felt like this before all I wanted to do in that moment is to hug him back but I couldn't even move ,my wounds are deep and are holding me from doing any movement . 

- Do I look okay to you - I answered in a soft hurt voice.

He didn't say a word but picked me from the ground and wrapped me in his big warm arms and that's when we saw each other faces , it only lasted a few minutes but It felt like hours , maybe he knew what I looked like before but I didn't, that look he had in his face is still graved  in my memory till now , his eyes were brown and sparkly, his hair was brown and mid long covering his face that I barely distinguish how does his checks and mouth look  like ,the swirl of his loamy cologne had me swooning in the aisles , everything about him was perfect  , but he doesn't even know me , why does he care?
He walked , with me in his arms like if we knew each other for years , he didn't pronounced any word , I didn't as well. I don't know why the silence wasn't uncomfortable , I enjoyed every little second , I felt safe in his arms , I loved how he did look at me every minute , yes I counted it because I didn't pull away my eyes from him .

- Sometimes, the only reason why you won't let go of what's making you sad is that it was the only thing that made you happy - He said while looking at me with his heavenly eyes . It was the first time that I heard such a sentence that describes what I'm living , it did hit me hard.

- And what  do you know about me - I yelled at his face with tears all over my face .

- Why didn't you leave him ? -he bellowed

- I am the only person left for him in this world , everyone left him , it's not his fault.

He answered , - What about you ? What about your childhood, your teenage years that went in nothing , it's not your fault too , don't blame yourself for this .
                      SILENCE FOR ABOUT 2min
- Coming to my room every night , the only thing he did was hitting me , he didn't leave a spot in my body without bruises , he was letting his anger out at me , I laughed , and you know what?  the next day , he just comes  to my room , hugs me and tell me how much he loves me , ehm, what.. di ..I ...to live this .

- Shushh - he whispered , wiping my tears and sneaking his soft fingers in my hair to fix it ,
- Don't think about this now just close your eyes - he added holding me in his arm again and walking me to somewhere.

- Wait...who are you ? - I said

- I work in the coffee shop close to your house - he answered.

- And where are you taking me - I mumbled.

- Home..-