Can words even describe?

Moving on.

I want to write about you, because for some reason, you still hurt. I try to be some crazy, good writer, relating you, to some type of baked good like something that was sweet, but also sour like Key lime pie, but I just can't. you were like an ocean,it came in waves, like bipolar disorder which you had and let affect us. There are so, few, times with you I remember as good, if even that. funny, how, just now I realize when you actually tried, it was only once absolutely necessary. Now, I get having to almost lose what you have, to see just how much, you love it. I get that, because I have been there but that was so much different than what you did. I am not the only one you have hurt. while you remove yourself from my heart you also hurt, those who live in it. You destroyed my happiest moments and created some of my most haunting.

I try to take good from all experiences, so thank you,  for making me realize and accept time, even 10 years cannot stop someone from leaving, no matter, what kind of relationship you hold with someone they can still destroy your reputation, just because you showed your real, self. No matter how hard you try for someone if they don't try too nothing will work, you can't fix everything, it is not your fault. Not everything is up to you, not everything is your fault. You were hurting, and that's not your fault, that's not your fault, and it's time, to let go. It is OK to let go, and you should not feel guilty. You should not feel guilty, because it is not your fault. It was not my fault, it is over, and now I need and deserve, to let go.