Can't let you go

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Pete Pov

My alarm successfully destroyed my superr happy dream life.life I  could never afford no matter how much I try.Me being comfortably lying on the bed with my partner.Him showering me with love.We being a super happy family in our very own house.
But all I have is regret.Regret to meet an asshole who destroyed everything I needed who shallowed my life and left.
Here I am even after 5 years trying hard to track my life.I wish I never stayed in Bangtok.Wish I had accepted my job application to move to London.Wish I never trusted his words."Pete...Don't leave me.We will be happy together.Happy with our own house we build.I promise we will sought everything" fucker,the every next month he left.Left me all alone to rot here in hell.Now I neither have enough experience nor a degree to have a proper job.My every job never give me a chance to use my skills and I always end up resigning it.And now I am applying for jobs.Trying so hard to get a job as an Secretary.I am sure I can be a good secretary if at all some one hires me.I have given a interview in a famous company, interview ended up them saying we will let you know.something I have heard millions of times in my recent times but there it always end.I never recieved any mails for my joining and I guess that's what going to happen again.Sighing I layed on my bed thinking about my past.Something crazy about my past is,it is completely filled with memories of one person whom  I believed trusted and loved only to be left.Wish I made some friends.Wish I interacted with other people but I didn't  knew that I will be left alone cause back then he was my life.I practically grown with him.Our mothers were friends so naturally we were together since in our mothers womb.Even when my parents died in an accient while I was 10. His mother brought me with them.I grew up with him,My childhood days,my schooling my college.I never felt the need to have someone cause I never imagined my life without him.
  But I guess I should have.Life would have been more easier if I did.I still go to his house every weekend to meet his parents.They basically  raised me and I am never cutting them off because of him.

This is how my every morning begins.Me regretting and hating him for everything he did.If you don't know how to love, then don't.Its still better than breaking their heart in the end,leaving them souless.

It's not I haven't moved on from him.I have.A long back ago.I would be a fool to still love him.But the point is I never tried to get into a relation.My every decision is related to him.Every time I want to commit I just can't.Its tough and I can't risk.So all I want now is to earn money,be rich and chill.I am more than enough all alone.

Moving from my bed,I made my way to bathroom.I bathed and sat to check my mail in a small hope for any job.And yesss.Finally my hard work paid off.I am selected in Walver Cooperation.A successful company meaning I will be paid well.And then I panicked,I should be there to formally sign the documents and Today's the last date.

Rushing to get dressed I made my way to the company.Panting I made  my way to the counter.She showed me my way to wait in a hall.It seems all the new recruits would be introduced to the CEO.
I want to make a good impression.hopefully I will.

After a wait of 15 minutes.It was announced that CEO is coming to address us all.

I didnot even had time to realise how fucked up my life is
When that base deep voice echoed the room.The voice I never wanted to hear again.When I was thinking my life is going to be alright.this fucker made his appearance.
Good morning to all our new workers.The moment u sign the contract you become a part of our family.A member of our coporation.And I wish everyone best of luck to prove yourself and make your place.

I don't exactly know how to react or what to say.should I resign.but noo I am finally getting a job I wanted and now there's no going back.I can't let my past effect me.Why am I only one effected when he is standing there all godly with confidence and power radiating all around.Is it because I was only who loved him.And that thought pricked my heart.I never knew I will be this weak again.I thought he didn't effect me.But I guess I am wrong.My face was all pale,hands sweating and my body full of jealousy.How could this peace of shit prosper when I am still trying to tackle myself.Did I really mean nothing to him.Iam trying so hard not to cry not to let myself down not again not infront of this asshole atleast and then finally his eyes landed on me.I thought he will be shocked and guilty but that mother fucker was smirking.
My pain was replaced with anger.Anger to punch that mother fucker and kill him right now.

Rolling my eyes I was staring at a wall in front of me.Then he concluded "There's no place of forgiveness.You will be punished for your actions" Speaking all those words directing at me.Staring me and considering me a piece of dirt. I am not giving you any reaction you fucker.I raised my middle finger pretending to adjust my hair all way.His smirk darkened as if he was planning something.
He called of the meeting telling everyone to leave.In relief I tried to rush as soon as possible when he echoed " not u Mr.Pete.I have something to discuss with you.Meet me in my office."

Gritting my teeths I nodded

You want to play dirty,fine.Lets do it.I don't have anything to loose either.I will drag u to the same hell I am right now.