Everything's gonna be okay

Leave...

The room was empty , but he was there , I always hated the term hospital , but I hate it now more , I stood up removing the serum from my hand , and headed to the door . He held my hand so I pushed him screaming - Let go of me- he didn't listen but kept looking at me with those eyes holding both of my arms , I kept screaming - Let go of me , let go of me, let go of me.....please.

- You're done - he whispered pushing me to his chest

- You can hate me tomorrow, you don't have to tell me what happened, I'm here for you Lydia.

- I stopped and looked at him , why does he care about me , didn't he try to kill me then gave up , who is he ? Why is he showing up every time I need someone to be there for me ? With all those questions turning in my head I didn't pronounce anything just held him tightly tearing in his arms , I always feel safe crying with him holding me , but I hated him for what he did , not for kidnapping me , or lying to me , but for making me believe that maybe he's not like the others and maybe he'll be the one.
I know everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I wish I knew what the reason was.

- I cameback but couldn't find you , they told me you were gone - He said

- I wasn't gonna accept to talk with you though- I replied moving his arms from me and sat with my back against the wall.

- Shush...I'm the one doing the talking today, just listen to what I'm going to tell you then I'll leave if you ask to - He claimed - I'm Negan , I'm a maf.. I was sent on a mission to kill you , but after seeing you , I couldn't do it , It's the first time that this happens to me , I know, I sound stupid , but after thinking, I went back to you to apologise but you weren't there , so I came back home to my city but look what happened, I found you , not like how I wanted to find you , but I'm still glad I was there cause who knows what could've happened, you're okay now that's the most important thing . You wanted to trust me , here I am , I told you everything. - Negan added with a sad pure voice.

- Leave...please.. - I whispered

He didn't say a word but left looking deeply at my eyes , I turned back to my bed , covering all my body with the blanket holding my self from tearing up , what is going on with me ? I couldn't stop thinking about him , and what he said , I waited for him to comeback but he didn't but it's my fault I asked him to leave .
He seemed strong and heartless but his eyes were telling the opposite, his eyes were empty , scared , he was hiding everything inside of him .
Days passed , weeks , and I still waited for him , I wanted to see him , I wanted him to tell me everything about him, the real him , I regret every word I told him , maybe I fell in love with him the day he kidnapped me but I never admitted it , what else can I do now , I should've told him to stay , it's too late now .
AFTER 3 YEARS
A lot of things happened till this day , some pretty good things happened, others were terrible. After my mom knew that I moved to another city , she found me and we talked , she explained why she had to do the things she'd done, adding that she had an eye on me since I was a kid , that's how she did find me , she showed me pics of me growing up she owned claiming that she asked our neighbour maddy to take them for her , and I was wondering why aunt maddy was taking pictures of me every time she got a chance to , we tried to fix everything between us even though it was hard in the first days but we got used to it , I noticed that she really was trying to fix our relationship again , she did her best , and it was enough for me to forgive her . I'm now living in her house with my stepdad Carlos , he's a mafia boss , I don't know if I'm allowed to say this , the thing I'm still confused about, he's so mysterious about his job , that's why I don't know much about how he run things there , I don't know how he did meet my mother , I never asked her lol .

That's the first time I feel that I belong somewhere, I'm finally living in a house where both of a mom and a dad love me , we're happy together, Carlos really does treat me like his own daughter, and I consider him like a father to me , cause he really cares about me , I can tell .
Even though I moved to this new house, I mean this castle technically, I still have contact with Carol and daryl , I meet them most of the time , they're together now which is the greatest thing they did for each other , I'm so happyy for them . Well the only thing I like about my stepdad's work is those hot men who works for him and with him , I remember one time I went with my father and it's the only time I did , everyone was respecting me their , and I was called the boss's daughter by all of those hot men , I crave to go back again but both of my parents now forbid me to , cause its seems to be dangerous their .
When I first met him , he seemed mean but he does have a soft spot for me and my mom , he even got me into one of the richest schools of literature and helped publish my first book , and the thing that made me the happiest daughter in this world lately is that he surprised me with a book launch party that's gonna be next week in Italy , we're inviting, friends and family, and all of those richest families he know so I'm not just happy , I'm crying in happiness, in fact every time I cross him in the house I hug him thanking him for everything he did .
I'm so scared , exited and happy for that day to come but I gotta prepare my self cause I'm the host and the only dominant woman in this party as my father said , woah .
I can't believe this is really happening.