Happy Girl

Chapter 1-Alice

I have no will to live. I just want to die already. Die, Die, Die. The pills in the bottle of Lunesta I have are clanking around from my shaking hands. I don't cry though. I can't seem to let any tears fall. I just stare blankly at the bottle. Screwing off the lid of the bottle I suddenly become terrified. There's no going back. Just die , look how pathetic you are. You can't even do that. Slowly I pour a handful of pills into my shaking hand. The cool September winds almost blow some tablets on the green, bright, and freshly mowed park grass so I clench them in my fists. I stand in front of the lake. Hopefully, if these pills don't work I'll fall into the water and drown. I just want the pain to stop. These feelings I can't shake no matter how hard I try. Nothing will ever change. Things will continue the way they are unless I end it. It's the only way to get away from it all. Unclenching my fists I stare at the pills, this should be enough. Okay I'm ready. I slowly take the handful of pills ready to slide them into my mouth to end it when something hard crashes into me. I almost fall in the water but I manage to stay standing upright. The same can't be said for the thing that hit me becuase I hear whatever it is land on the ground with a thump. that sounds like it hurt. I stare at the ground still in a haze. The pills are scattered everywhere. The bottle rolls into the lake and some pills are disintegrating into the water while the rest are barely visible in the grass. I slowly turn around to help the person that hit me up.

"Ow, I'm so sorry." A girl whsipers. Her big brown eyes apolegetically look up at me. I notice arm crutches are attached to her. Great, you hit a disabled person. What a scum you are.

" You bumped me. It kinda hurt." I state as I try to help her up. She's heavier than she looks. Her small body falling into my arms as I lift her up. She tries to scramble away and her cheeks turn pink.

"I'm really sorry. I was going for a walk and I saw a spider. It scared me and I jumped." The girl explains.

" Okay." I turn away from her once she's balanced and stare at the lake. I'm not really in the mood for talking. I start walking away but the girl moves her crutches and follows me.

"Thank you." She says.

I look at her, " For what?"

She smiles, " I could have fallen into the lake and it would have been way worse. You saved my fall. So thank you."

"Yeah, sure." I rub my back where she bumped me. It still kind of hurts.

" Do you live around here?" She asks, her black hair swaying with her body as she moves.

"Yeah. I was just going for a walk." I frown as I turn a corner and she follows.

"Where are you going?" She questions.

"Home." I frown.

" Looks like our houses are in the same direction." She smiles.

I look down at the ground and continue walking. I slow down my pace so I'm walking side by side with her. I do feel bad about her falling. Shouldn't someone who can't walk be with someone. A caretaker perhaps? Someone who won't just let her fall alone. Things could have been pretty bad If I wasen't there to save her fall.

"What's your name?" The girl asks.

" Alice." I move a blonde strand of hair from my face. My hairs messy, I can't even remember the last time I brushed it. Hell, I can't even remember the last time I washed it. It must be super oily now. Whatever.

"I'm Kura. Nice to meet you." She chirps. I nod and continue looking down at the ground. The breeze sends a chill throughout my body so I place my hands in my pockets. The girl stops moving and I walk past her.

" I turn here. So bye Alice." She cheers. She quickly moves her arms and begins walking down the sidewalk. Part of me wants to follow her to make sure she get's home safely but I just stand there and watch her walk off.

When she's out of view I stand by the corner still staring in the direction she walked off in. Kura. She dosen't know it but that girl just saved my life today. I guess this is a sign. The gods are telling me to live another day. I don't know why but I feel a sliver of something I hadn't felt in a long time. Hope.