Needing You (you, Series #1)

CHAPTER 27

I can't believe we're drifting away from each other, our friendship is drifting away. Mali ba talagang umamin ako kay dray? Was it really my fault? Ako ba talaga? I don't like the taste of alcohol but here i am, drinking. I can't really believe what had happened. We're like string tied close and now we're drifting away? All because i was being honest with my feelings? I grabbed my cellphone and take a picture with these drinks. I posted it in my social media account with "i miss you guys :(" caption. I'm just super sad right now, all i have is them kase busy sila mom and dad, and now they're leaving me? Including my very best friend? They all left me? Naka ilang baso na ata ako ng iniinom ko and i can feel na I'm drunk na. Tumunog ang "ting" sound sa cp ko, it's my notif. "i miss you more" it's damien's message. I called him, i can't type rn.

"I miss you more my ass," i said. I can really hear my drunk voice, tf.

"Lasing ka na." bakit ang lalim ng boses niya sa call?

"Yeah, i admit. I miss our friends." i said as my tears stream down from my eyes.

"Hey, why are you crying?"

"I asked karly kung anong nangyari sa kanya and he said nothing but i know, i know damien na there's something going on." i don't think he can understand me. Hindi ko masyado mabigkas nang maayos yung mga salita dahil sa iyak ko. "And–and they're being rude to me all the time." para akong bata na nag susumbong.

"Hindi rin ako pinapansin ni karly." these tears can't freaking stop.

"Is it really my fault? Kung hindi ba ako umamin kay dray hindi ba magkaka-ganto?"

"Partly yes, siguro? Kaibigan natin si dray and he likes someone else," mas naiyak ako sa sinabi niya, ang sakit. Now, i can really say na it hurts a lot.

"Then why are they being rude to me? I didn't even do anything I'm just being honest!" i cried my heart out cuz im freaking sad.

"Pupuntahan kita. Dadamayan kita, antayin mo ako." then he hunged up.

I'm so very thankful that i have damien, siya nalang ang natira. You know i really value anyone that is important to me. I really value the memories we shared, the kulitans, asarans and such pero why did they throw it like a trash? Did they even think of what i felt? I chatted karly, she just left me on read. That made me cry even more. I also chatted shisly, i told her that i am very sorry for confessing my feelings to dray. That i missed her but she didn't respond. It delivered but i guess they're really ignoring me. Same as cloe, thankfully she responded. She told me that she missed me too and that's it. And dray, i called him. He answered it right away and at first I didn't say a word. Para bang nawala lahat ng nasa isip ko, nawala lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.

"What?" akala ko napindot niya lang or something.

"U-uhm hey" my voice cracked, damn it!

"Bakit ka tumawag kel?" i miss his voice.

"I just–i just miss you," my tears can't hold back, my gosh.

"Are you crying?"

"No," i said while sobbing, silly me. "I miss you and our friendship."

"Lasing ka ba? Ano ba to, prank call?"

"You're really rude! I'm crying and now you're thinking na this is some kind of joke?" my voice echoed in my room. "All you–all you think is that all of this is a joke, my feelings, my existence, and our friendship!" He didn't talk so i continued talking–moreike ranting.

"Mag pahinga ka na."

"No!" i firmly said. "Remember what I've told you? I will never stop dray, ever. I need you, can't you look at me? Ako naman please." i said as if he's right here, in front of me.

"I'm sorry kel, mag pahinga ka na."

"Can't you really stop loving leandale? She's such–she's such a pretentious girl! She acts like a victim but no dray, it's me. It's true that i didn't threatened her, why can't you guys believe me?"

"She's so kind kel, she can't lie to me."

"She's not perfect! i just saw her kissing that varsity guy right where you and her kissing too! Is that how you define kind and can't lie to you??" alam kong pag sisisihan ko to mamaya but no, i have to say this.

"What are you talking about?"

"Kailan yung sinasabi niyang right time? Pag nasatisfy na siya sa pagiging baliw niya??"

"Don't talk to her like that."

"Oh c'mon dray! Remember that josh guy? He said that leandale was an obsessed wench nung sila pa nung varsity guy! He can't break up with her kase baka may gawin ito sa sarili niya! That girl is not in her right mind dray, believe me."

"I said, don't talk to her like that! That's not true kel, don't judge a person dahil galit ka sa kanya. Naniwala ka agad sa lalakeng yun?"

"But I'm telling the truth dray, believe me."

"Lasing ka lang." then he hunged up. Why can't he believe me?? Lumagok pa ako ng isang baso dahil sa frustration na nararamdaman ko. It's like i want to exolode, gusto kong isigaw sa kanya lahat. Gusto kong saktan si leandale pero that won't help. Gusto kong umiyak nang umiyak. May kumatok sa bahay namin kaya naman tatayo na sana ako pero gosh the world is spinning! I used my hands to support me from walking, hinawakan ko na lahat ng pader o kahit ano. When i opened the door it revealed damien. Oh shoot, i forgot.

"Hey," i said while i chuckled. "Im–im sorry, i forgot hehe"

"You forgot to lock your gates, kel. Pano kung nalooban ka rito?" alam ko pa lahat pero my body's not cooperating, damn it! I almost fall dahil nawalan ako ng balance, gosh it's really spinning! "Hey," buti nalang nandito si damien. My night and shining armor. "Lasing ka na, anong nginingiti mo jan?"

"Me?" tinuro ko pa sarili ko to emphasize that I'm not drunk. "Drunk? No way, nakainom lang." i saw him chuckled. "Oh! What's funny huh?!" i slapped his shoulders.

"Aray! Tsk, upo nga muna tayo rito." naramdaman kong lumutang ako kaya i assumed na binuhat niya ako, i can't feel my body right now. "Wth ysobel, hard drinks? Really?"

"What?" i chuckled. "C'mon, im sad. Anong magagawa ko? Edi mag lasing" i laughed while saying it.

"You need to rest."

"What rest? Noo, we will drink."

"No. Rest." tsh, what can i do? Edi sleep. Binagsak ko nalang sarili ko sa sofa and sleep. Easy way to fall asleep, it's the alak for me.

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