Well, let's just say that the past few weeks were intense and the next ones will be even more action-packed. The end of season after party was unbelievable. Everyone who matters was there, the teams, drivers and tons of celebrities. I was with John and Lewis all night. People were surrounding us every second, taking pictures with Lewis, toasting him. I already got used to the company of famous people, but man, drinking a shot of vodka with Ryan Reynolds was something else. I will remember this party forever, well not every part of it because I got quite drunk. The three of us had such a hangover that we could only travel back home after 3 days...
We arranged that double date with Tracey and John a week after and it was amazing. She is really sweet. We went to a restaurant and talked about our relationship with Lewis, which is still a secret from the public and also their dating life. It turned out that Tracey liked John for a couple of month now but she wasn't brave enough to act on it. She had a few drinks at the Brazilian GP after party and went over to John to seduce him which worked perfectly. Tracey is 28 from London and she lives alone in Brackley. She moved here when she got the job offer. Their relationship just started to get serious and she spends a lot of time with our trio nowadays which is good because she keeps John occupied and I can be with Lewis. My brother seemed to accept us, he treats us as a couple not as his best friend and little sister.
The coming weeks are going to be interesting because we will have our first Christmas and New Year's Eve together. We will spend the 24th together, the four of us here at our place. For the 25th and 26th, Lewis and I are going to visit his parents. This will be the first time I will meet them properly as Lewis' girlfriend. I have seen his father and brother at the races but I didn't have a chance to talk to them a lot. Lewis already told them that he will come with his girlfriend but his family doesn't know much about us. I am nervous because I have no idea if they would accept me. However, this is future Sara's problem as today is a bigger day.
I am turning 18. I wake up on Friday at 8 with an enormous smile on my face. I am legally an adult. I can buy alcohol and cigarettes, not that I smoke... I quit when I came here, when my real life begun. And now, when my relationship with Lewis will be official, it won't turn that much head anymore. At least, I hope so. John and Lewis didn't say anything about my birthday so I guess that they have a surprise planned. I get dressed and I go to the kitchen to have my morning coffee. The boys are sitting at the counter as usual having breakfast.
- Good morning, beautiful. I made you breakfast with your latte. – smiles Lewis as he sees me.
- Thank you. – I give him a kiss as I sit down.
- Why are you smiling like that? – asks John studying my face.
- I don't know... I can feel that today will be a great day. – I laugh.
- I hope you are right, love. We have a meeting today with Toto about the car for the next season. We will roughly see how well our updates work.
- Don't worry. I can feel that they are going to be awesome.
After having breakfast, the boys head out to the factory. I put on my training clothes and go for a short run. I don't want to tire myself out for tonight so I just do a quick 5k. I have a shower, then I go to the nearest shop to buy my first ever legal vodka.
- Do you have an ID? – asks the clerk at the counter.
- Yes, of course, here you go. – I smile and hand him the card.
- Wow, happy birthday! But don't forget to drink responsibly. – he winks.
- Thank you! – I smile.
Today is an awesome day. I never had a proper birthday before because my parents never cared enough. Okay, I celebrated some of them with friends but it is not the same. I can't wait for the boys to come home and to find out what they had planned.
At 5, I get a text from Lewis saying that the car looks amazing and that they decided to go out for drinks with the engineers and they will be home around 8. They probably don't want to raise any suspicions, hence the text. I can't think of anything else. I watch Netflix to occupy myself and then decide to get ready. I put on a nice, red dress and do my makeup. When I am ready, I sit on the couch and wait for the boys to arrive. I get impatient around 9, so I send a text to Lewis. When I don't receive an answer, I start to worry. What if they forgot? They have been really busy celebrating the win, relaxing before the next season and testing the new car... However, I try to convince myself that it is not possible. They love me and it is my 18th which is a big deal. My phone beeps.
Lewis: I am sorry, love. Party got out of hand. We are at Valtteri's place and will probably stay the night. Love you, see you tomorrow. Sweet dreams.
My tears start to fall after reading his text. They really forgot about me. I try to convince myself that it is not so important, they didn't mean to, December is intense, but I don't feel better. It mattered to me. To have a normal birthday with my family. It hurts so much... I open the bottle of vodka that I bought and take a few big gulps. I just feel awful. My mind wanders into dangerous territory. John only took me in because he felt obligated to. He pitied me so he agreed that I can live with him. Lewis doesn't love me; he just likes to have fun with me... The dark thoughts are running through my mind and I can't stop them. I am nothing, I am a nobody, I don't matter... My hands are shaking and man, I really want to smoke... I decide to go down to the store to buy a pack of Marlboro. The cashier doesn't even ask for my ID. I go home and sit on the terrace with the vodka. I take out a cigarette and I light it. I inhale deeply but I don't feel any better. I just feel miserable... I am disgusting, I am pathetic. No wonder no one loves me...
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Fanfiction- You are a silver star now. - says Toto. - A what? - You lived your life alone, surrounded by envious yellow stars who made your life miserable for being different. But being different doesn't mean that you didn't shine as bright. On the contrary...
