I woke up today to 3 envelops one from Nalanie one from Barbie and one from Jodie... my heart instantly dropped I was sooo excited!!! This day can't be no better... "ouuu somebody happy Kior said brushing her teeth... I was so anxious I didn't know which letter to read first... I picked up Nalanies and opened it... it had pictures of me and her I can hang up on the wall. And a letter ....
Dear, Ari I know I seen you on Saturday but I just can't help to keep in contact with you so mommas has been seeing a therapist now and her anxiety attacks are slowing going away. But she sometimes sleeps in your room I know she misses you dearly ... oh and I'm taking a break from college until my baby's born I hope you doing well can't wait to see you xoxo love Lanie-❤️
I hope my momma is doing okay I really miss her face.. I started to feel down but decided to keep my spirit up... Can't let nobody see me sad right now. Next I opened up Barbies letter dang I Miss my homegirl so bad.
Heyy booo I miss you my forever homegirl ... I got so much tea to tell you but I couldn't go and see you cause I'm on house arrest for 3 months. But after that I'm moving to NYC. why didn't you tell me I was finna be a aunty !! And Jodi being the father ouuu!!!! Nahh I'm playin but After the party Brandon and I got caught with the stolen items he's such an idiot but sense they didn't find my fingerprints they gave me probation and took him in.. They only gave him 2 months so he got what like a week left. And my momma said she wants me to go live with my grandmother back in Harlem Ny .. I don't wanna go though imma literally cry if I never be able to see you again oh and Jodie he been locked up but he's been out now for 2 weeks his dumb cousins is in town now so I know they finna be up to no good ... well I gotta go eat love you ninaaa mama forever and always my bestie:
Tears slowly came down my face I missed Barbie so much the things we been through she was my ace but so was Jodie. I was hesitant about opening up the letter he wrote I started having anxiety. Just read it I told myself... I slowly opened the letter...
Aye you know I don't write but I miss you lil shorty ... lanie told me how you was mad at me cause I didn't contact you yet my bad .. my p.0 said I can't have no contact with you until after the trial was over I miss you mane. And so why didn't you tell me you was carrying my baby I though we tight that ain't cool ninaaaa .... Im really finna be a dad that's crazy G but you know you gotta hold yo own why u in there ... Barbie prolly told you but my cuzzos back in town and we riding 5 deep... don't miss me imma be waiting for you when you get out like always keep my baby safe and protected I'm out I love u Nina Carter:
Tears and tears fell down heavily as I read the letter. He never once told me he loved me maybe writing would be easier than sayin it to my face... I hug the letter and whispered... I love you more Jodie combs... lord knows I miss him every second of the day. I remember we use to have rap battles and eat ramen noodles at 3am just laughing not having a care in the world. He had such a beautiful spirit always smiling... even though his daddy failed him I know he won't fail our child no matter what.. I hope he is being careful out there with his cousins cause they can be reckless...
Today was the day I was suppose be seeing what gender my baby is.. I was so happy I think I'm having a girl I said to Kior. "I think I'm having a boy .. before you found out just keep it in the envelope and then we can surprise eachother after ok? She said nervously.
Miss Angels came and brought me to miss wang. "Heyyy!! Ninaaa have a seat are you excited she said hugging me. "Yes but before you tell me can you put it in a envelope I wanna have like a mini gender reveal something happy while im here. "Ofc!! She said putting jelly on my stomach it was getting a little bigger. "Ouuu the baby head is big and the little toes she said pointing. Everything looks healthy.. she gave me a grey ball to smash to see what I'm having. After I came back it was Kiors turn... I was so eager and anxious like dang ms wang hurry up...
30 minutes later Kior came in with the same grey ball... "are you ready she said smiling hard... "you go first I told her.. she closed our jail cell and walk where the window was. Alright 1 2 3 she threw the ball on the ground and pink ash came out she jumped happily up and down tears ran down her face. It's a GIRRL!!! she screamed... that was the most I've seen her happy. Your turn Ari .. I threw the ball and blue asshhh came out I immediately starting crying jumping up and down this was a happy moment. "Your having boy !!! She said hugging me...
I gotta think of names now Kior said grabbing her journal.. bro Darrien is gonna be happy. "Who is Darrien I asked her ... "he's my child's father hopefully he's staying out of trouble to even see her when she's born.
I walked out the room and into the cafeteria I think my son was getting hungry... all the snacks they had was apples grape and cheese its... so I grabbed some grapes and sat down.. the tv they had, it was playin Some westerns called rifle man. My dad loved that show growing up. "Jodieeee I heard a girl call.. "I turned and I seen the girl standing there smiling at me.. the same girl that was outside. I sat there and ignored her the light was dim in the cafeteria and it a small couch and 2 girls was watching it before bedtime. She came and sat down in front of me.. "so wassup wit you and J dog she said staring directly in my face. She was dark skinned with light brown eyes.. And I know she was just tryna pick with me. I knew my anger can sometimes get the best of me so I said in a calm voice. "You know me or sum.. grabbing more grapes... "Nahh but I know you're the girl that's tight with my ex- boyfriend. "Oh I didn't know my baby dad had messed with dirty rags. "baby dad ?? Girl dirty ragss!! Who you think you is. She said standing over me. I sat there calmly cause I knew I didn't wanna add more time to my sentence. She said confused ain't no way Jodie got a baby on the way and he didn't tell me! She said In disbelief. I guess my son and your baby is siblings. Stupid dummy she said under and breath and walked off. I got and said. "Girll!! You don't even know who the father of your baby is ... stay in yo lane Rat !! "Ayeee!!! Miss angela came storming in what's the issue.. "there's no issues the girl said looking at me grabbing her son hand. "Jaylyn you better not be tryna pick a fight... Cells now!!! who she think she is rolling up on me like that and being messy.. like she really didn't even have to say anything now I'm finna be worried and stressed.... The dorms closed at 9:30 and I was half the night re reading the letter Jodie sent me.. ain't no way he having 2 babies.
