The Guadalajara Estate's grandeur is in the middle of the forest.
The mansion where Viko brought me was incredibly screaming of influence, prosperity, and exquisiteness.
It's giving me royal blood vibes, or was he a royal? If maybe he is, then that's the reason why he has very rare oceanic eyes. I couldn't take my eyes the mansion, wondering how big it was inside.
Malalaman mong sopistikado ang bawat inukit sa poste ng napakalaking haligi. Puti man ang lahat ay litaw na litaw ang nakakamanghang mansyon.
Pakiramdam ko ay isang reyna lamang ang nararapat tumira rito. I'm not a queen; even Viko was the king of this estate. I was just his slave, I guess, and though we are married, I couldn't imagine him giving me authority to be in control of this vast place.
Pumeywang ako sa harapan ni Viko upang ihayag ang paninindigan kong hindi sasama sa pupuntahan niyang golf course.
"What's the reason why you wouldn't come with me?" He's wearing an outfit suited for playing golf. I am drying his blonde, wet hair after he took a bath.
Ang palad niya'y humawak sa aking kamay, kaya natigil ako sa pagpupunas. He wants me to sit beside him. Kaya umupo ako sa aming kama.
We sleep together in one king-size bed.
It's been almost a week since we got married. Pero walang honeymoon na nangyari dahil red days at ayaw ko nga! He often kissed me wherever we were; he would touch me anywhere, but down there was an exception.
He seems to understand, or is he just waiting for my menstruation to end? Nevertheless, he was not forcing it, so there's some peace somehow.
He loosened up a bit because it's been days since he last threatened to hurt and kill my family and relatives. Even if I don't want this marriage, ginagampanan ko ang pagiging may bahay niya. I cooked him food, I prepared his clothes for work, and I didn't decline his touches and kisses except for having sex with him.
It's a wife's obligation to their husbands, yet I don't think I'm ready. I have no choice at all. Tanggap kong ito na ang magiging buhay ko simula ng kinasal ako rito.
He would just walk away, leaving me alone whenever I resisted. I know we are married, but I don't want to do it for now.
Gagawin parin namin yan hindi ko lang alam kung kailan, kaya nagpapasalamat ako sa mga oras na tumitigil siyang hawak hawakan ako sa iba't ibang parte ng aking katawan.
This mansion is surrounded by armed men. Kahit saang anggulo ay maraming bantay na nakaduty. I wouldn't lie and say that I don't think of escaping kaya lang hindi sinubukang gawin kasi alam ko na ang mangyayari sa aking pamilya.
To be frank, Viko is a vicious man with little patience. I got to witness how cruel he was when he kicked savagely at one of the guards who forgot to set the security alarm on this mansion's big gate. He thought I had escaped already, but I was in the garden planting and watering a cactus.
He beat and almost killed the man who was not moving anymore, but none of the maids, guards, or even his men in black security dare stop him.
I stopped Viko because I pity the poor man. He calmed down in relief when he saw me. Iyon lang dahil halos ikulong niya ako sa kwarto para maghalikan lang kami. Viko forbade me to go anywhere else; dito lang ako sa malawak na bahay niya piniit.
He has his office upstairs; that's where he works if he does not go to his company. Malaya akong maglibot sa buong mansion pero ang malapitan ang gate kahit saglit hindi niya gusto. Naging sanhi iyon ng away at muntik muntikan nang may mangyari sa amin dahil roon.
"Tinatamad ako. I also want to watch movies and sleep all day." Bored kong sagot. It's actually my chance to be outside, but I have to call my cousin Sonia. May sasabihin itong importante at hindi raw dapat marinig ni Viko.
He combed his hair before snaking his arms around my waist and pulling me toward him. Tumitig lang siya sa mata ko na walang sinasabi, kaya palagay ko ay naniwala naman.
"I'll be out for hours with my hermanos; enjoy watching, and I'll be back before lunch." Hinapit niya pa ako lalo sa bewang unti nalang ay masubsob na sa kaniyang dibdib.
I tilted my head when he kissed me. Kahit naka-upo ay matangkad parin siya. Bumaba ang labi nito sa aking leeg na aking inaasahan dahil lagi niya itong ginagawa sa akin.
Napapasinghap ako sa tuwing ang mga palad niya'y marahang humahaplos sa aking braso habang ang isang kamay nito ay pumipisil sa hita ko. Hanggang halikan at hawak lamang dahil tinutulak ko siya pagka lumalayo at lumalalim na.
"Viko." Mahinang usal ko sa kaniyang pangalan. He held my chin and gave me a deep kiss again before he let me go. It affects my body because, after all, I'm just a human.
"Fuck!" He murmurs, but I can still hear him.
Nakatayo lamang ako sa entrada ng mansion, habang ito ay lulan na ng sasakyan palabas. I waited until the gate was closed.
Huminga ako ng malalim bago umakyat sa aming kwarto.
I was allowed to contact my family and relatives using a telephone. I cannot even open my social media accounts because he forbade me to do things that he thinks I'm going to use to escape from here.
Tuwing nakaka-usap ko si Emilliano ay lagi nitong sinasabi na nagpapadala raw siya ng mga pictures sa akin, pero hindi ko sini-seen. I would only laugh and point out that my phone was being fixed.
The truth is that Viko confiscated my smart phone. Sabihan ko mang ibalik nito sa akin pinili kong huwag na dahil pagtatalunan pa.
