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SKZ felix - miss you

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Sad. Numb. Angry.
Those were the main emotions trapped inside of me. I was sad that one of my own beloved family members were taken away from me. I was numb because now it felt like I had nothing, it felt like everything was taken away. And I was angry. Angry at how one day they are there then the next minute theft are gone.

How do you move on from the fact that someone who has taken care of you all your life is now gone forever and you will never get to hear their voice again.

All I wanted to do was sit in my dark room doing nothing. I had no energy to do anything. I couldn't even take care of myself properly, skipping meals, no exercise and not even showering. I know it is disgusting but I had no motivation to do it, everything was exhausting.

My alarm rang. I was hit with the realisation that I had stayed awake the whole night with not even a minute of sleep. I leaned over to turn my alarm off. Although I didn't want to get out of bed, we had our concert today which made the pain lessen just a bit.

The thing I love about concerts is seeing all the stays. When we are on that stage we are faced with the people who payed money just to see us, the people who bring us gifts and write us messages through bubble. It was magical.

I gathered up the remaining energy i had left and went and took a shower, brushing my teeth after. After I had finished those I put my clothes on,  grabbing my phone and making my way to the couch in the living room.

I could hear distant footsteps of the others getting ready, I just sat and waited. There was a sudden notification on my phone, I lifted it up to check it. It was from my mom.

Hey sweetie, I hope your doing okay. I know it's your concert today and I just wanted to send you this message. I am so proud at how far you have come. You have worked so hard for this and I hope it all goes well. I am so proud of you son and I know your grandma is looking down on you proud as well. Keep checking in with me okay? Love you honey.

I couldn't help but let a tear slip from my eye. I missed my family so much and all I want is for my grandma to come back, to be happy and healthy once again.

"Felix are you okay mate" I turned my head around, chan walking over to me. I quickly wiped my tears hoping he wouldn't notice I was crying "yeah of course". He had a sort of disappointed face while sitting next to me and I couldn't help but feel like I had done something wrong.

"Look Felix, yesterday was a lot and you done have to pretend you are okay. Your grandma was a very important person to you and you shouldn't hide your emotions, it's not healthy".
All I wanted to do was jump into chan's arms and cuddle. For him rock me side to side while whispering comforting words and phrases into my ear softly.

"I promise I'm okay hyung" I was hoping he wouldn't push it because if he did I wasn't sure how long I could keep acting like I was okay. I felt relieved when he walked off but I couldn't help but feel a part of me was a little disappointed at the action. "Is everyone ready to go, we can't be late we have a lot to do today"chan half yelled.

"Yes, coming" Han replied while walking down the stairs into the living room. I couldn't help but let out a little laugh at how cute it was. Within the next ten minutes we were all in the van on our way to the venue where the fan meet was taking place.

I was sitting next to Minho. I leaned my head against the window, listening to music through my headphones. I kinda wish we were doing something because now I was left with my thoughts. All the memories of me and my grandma filled me head. Ever since i was young me and my grandma would go on little day trips together, it was amazing. But now all I had were pictures.