Umaasa (Ba Sa Wala?)

chapter i i i : when my heart beats

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..6:23 AM...

I checked my wristwatch once more as I impatiently wait for his arrival.

..Asan na ba yung lalaking yun? Bwiset, huwag mong sabihing aabsent nanaman yun? Sinabi ko na sa kaniyang may long quiz kami mamaya ehh...

Shifting my attention away from the time for a moment, I turn my gaze back towards our professor na at that time, nagdidiscuss ng continuation ng lesson namin kagahapon.

I let out a big sigh as just as I predicted, either late or absent nanaman si Vaughnn.

Of course, I should've already expected..

A month and a half had already passed ever since nagsimula ang school year na 'to.

Who would've have thought na sa month and a half na yun na lumipas na kaming lahat ay magkakaklase, I've really only made one true friend so far, that being Vaughnn himself..

I just don't know how but somehow, sa tuwing kasama ko kasi si Vaughnn, my mind is just..at peace?

Something about him just made me feel comfortable sa tuwing magkasama kami. Its that feeling na after such a long, tiring day of trying to pretend and fit in with this crazy world, hanging out and just being with him overall recharges me all over again.

That feeling na even though I feel so drained and tired already, I can easily call him, get in contact with him and feel like I'm home once again..

Again, I really don't know how to explain it but, that, that's how I feel whenever I'm with him. And, as far as I can remember, he's really the second person to ever make me feel that way, that comfort, only after my Lola herself..

I supposed he is a friend to me now after all, a friend I had always wished for..

..6:31 AM...

I checked my wristwatch once more as my hope slowly fades away.

Baka nga hindi siya ulit papasok ngayon..

I was about to put my bag at his seat beside mine, already assuming na hindi na nga siya papasok when all of a sudden, a tall, panting figure entered our classroom once more, putting this uncontrollable smile on my lips.

"Good morning po, Miss. I'm sorry I'm late.." Deretso niya to the seat beside mine, really catching his breath before immediately pulling out his notebook and pens as his gaze then went straight to mine.

"Good morning." Asar kong ngiti sa kaniya dahil sa pagiging late nanaman niya, his facial reaction showing it all.

"I know, alright. Late na ako, okay?" He answered with such a straight face, turning his gaze towards the front of our class.

"So..bakit ka nga ba late?" Tanong ko sa kaniya, his gaze staying fix sa discussion ng aming professor.

"Andami ko pang inasikaso sa bahay.. Tangina, ayaw ata akong papasukin nila Mommy ehh.." Sagot niyang parang napakanormal na lang sa kaniya ng mga nagaganap, a hint of sarcasm traced in his tone.

Right..I forgot to mention.. Though laki nga si Vaughnn sa isang mayaman at well-sophisticated na pamilya, him and his parents never really gotten that well.

I supposed it was already 2 weeks ago ever since I figured out about his family problems.

Not that I wanted na makialam sa personal life niya in the first place but, after accidentally hearing one of his conversation with her mother trying to invite him na magpunta sa canteen kasama ako, he already dropped the bombshell of a news sa akin under the condition na "magkaibigan" nanaman daw kami.