Jodie changed he never been heavy in drinking alcohol... I told my momma what happened and she told me to let it die down over there. It's been a few days and he's been calling me but I declined... like how irresponsible can you be ... I grabbed my phone and texted him.
Jodie's Dad: Don't ever sit there and have alcohol around my son he not finna see his dad drink himself to death cause he can't deal with reality..
Jodie: why would you say that ? I'm not no alcoholic we just chillin .. my dad literally died a week ago man I'm literally going through it I know that don't excuse it but damn Ari.
I sat the phone down.. I'm sorry Jodie but my protection over my son comes first. Shiloh texted me to hangout tomorrow after my interview. "ARI!! JODIES HERE... I rolled my eyes... "you can let him in mom... I sat on the floor folding his clothes, while Karmello was in his lil floor bed thing watching Incredible Hulk sucking his pacifier. Jodie opened the door slowly and I kept my head down ignoring his presence. "Hey kc... he kissing his for-head. Ninaa he said softly I ignored him and got up and sat on my bed looking at the tv.. he came and sat next me. "Our son needs to see that his parents get along ma... "what Jodie he's right there play with him.. "I need to talk to you though... "about? "Look at me he said softly. "I'm sorry about that I respect your boundaries I won't ever put my son in jeopardy.. you know that.. Jodie wore a white tank top and some black basket ball shorts with his Durag. "Okay .. "I'm spending the night cause I haven't seen him in a while. I got him a mini durag cause he my mini me.... "You laying on the floor... I told him... "alright kc we got put on the floor .. nahhh Jodie !! Karmello is going in his crib ... "ight fair enough. Can I get a hug he told me: "he gave me hug and laid on me on my bed.. "jodieee!! Moveeee i said smiling.. "my breath smell good huh ma... "yeah I said.. Even though I can't stay mad at Jodie he's still my bestfriend.. So u seeing someone he asked me... the way he was looking at me made me mad nervy like girl get it together you have a whole child by him. "Yeah maybe I said smiling... "who is It he said laying on my bed as I flip through the channels. "None of your business... "I just wanna know if he finna be around my son.. "isn't that girl yahmaj your gf so why you worried bout my fine boyfriend.. even though I didn't have one it's nice saying I do to Jodie.. "Stop playin with me... For you be pushing out another one of these... "Jodie!!!! "I'm kidding.. "Can you watch him tomorrow I have an interview at High Tech Relations. "Yeah fs.. After he rocked Karmello to sleep.. he fell asleep on my bed.. we didn't talk about his dad and I plan on discussing that with him soon.
I got up early at 6:30 my mom was already at work: my interview was at 7:15 ... and Karmello had us up at night cause he decided that he wasn't sleepy.. I took a shower did my hair in a cute slick back bun.. I felt great about this interview I wore a nice collard shirt some flats and pants. I kissed karmello. "Can I get one Jodie said turning over.. no you can't ... why .. "cause I gotta go.. "why kc get one then... "cause he's special jodie... he sat there and stared at me.. fineee I went and kissed him.. "mhmm u better act like you know ma... "shutup...
It was hard to resist Jodie ... I was inlove with him... but times have changed and I have to be real with myself.. After the interview I sat in my moms old car and cried in front the house.. they turned me down cause I didn't have enough experience. I yelled and screamed. I instantly wiped my tears and went inside Karmello was doing tummy time playin with blocks. "Hey baby!!! Come here I gave him fat kisses .. Jodie was watching me I think he know I was crying.. i walked past him instantly ... no no come here he said .. I'm finna change .. he followed me in the room: I took my pants off while he sat in my bed eating apple.. "what happened Ari?
Can you go watch your son: I told him.. I am watching him.. he looked down the hallway.. "I put on some black booty shorts and a red sweater.. "Jodie give me some space. "Ight when you done come talk to me he left outta my room and I was overwhelmed.. Tears fell again .. I wanted that job so bad I said to myself... i don't want nobody to see me as a failure. Or act like I didn't try. I breathed in and out before walking out. I got some grapes and sat down on the couch. "What happened he said passing Karmello to me.. "whaaa nothing happened what movie is this. "It's Bridge to Teribrithia .. and I see the redness in your eyes and dried up tears ma.. you don't gotta lie to me. "I got turned down... I finally said with more tears coming down.. "They called me up there just to say I wasn't a fit they could've did that over the phone. "Maaa don't cry ... it wasn't meant to be standup he said. I stood up lookin at the tv... he gave me hug and reassured me.. "I don't wanna fail kc just cause I can't get a job.. "you not finna fail him and you worry to much Nina... this-gone help you grow and I got you ma.. "Noo Jodie I need to be standing on my own.. "I understand that but imma help you anyway I can. "He bent down and kissed me... on the lips. "Bruh Jodie moveeee I told him .. he started laughing and I sat back down playing with kc... "whaaa I can't kiss you he said.. getting in my face.. "no you can't I have a bf... "ninaaa stop playin no you don't. "Anyways I'm going to go hang out with my friend. So if you have work I can take him with me. "Who the friend .. he said tickling kc and kc is screaming in laughter. "It's yo so called bf huh ? "Yeah... "you not going in them shorts are you.... "What's wrong with them Jodie don't start ... "ight ... but nah take him with you I got football practice: "since when ? I asked him. "I applied yesterday and the tryouts was yesterday so I got in.. "that's good why didn't you tell me.. "you was mad at meee... After Jodie left... Shiloh said he couldn't make it.. I made dinner took him a bath.
The next few days went by the same. Except I didn't see Jodie.
