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escaping reality..
my definition of that is drowning out the world with music .
currently playing : shes mine pt.1 by j.cole
i don't know music has always been my peace, especially music thats makes u forget everything and make you only focus on the music nothing else.. the beat , the lyrics everything. what the some is about , what the artist is trying to tell you , the picture they trying to paint. you can really see it when you high .. or in that mindset. it's beautiful ..
especially when you can't find peace in yourself.. makes you forget all the hardships.. all the pain.. all the scars.. everything.
onto the story..
today wasn't really a good day for june.. its one of her off days.. the days where she felt like nothing.. where she wanted to die..
looking in the mirror as she cried hating the way she looked, the way her body looked, her skin, the stretch marks.. she hated everything about it.. she couldn't stand it.
opening her bathroom drawer going to the back of it grabbing a razor blade placing it on the sink taking off her clothes turning on the water filling up the tub.
grabbing the razor getting in the water. first she cuts her thighs.. then her wrist..then her thighs again.
she drops the razor getting out the tub unplugging the water letting it drain she sits in the bathroom floor losing to much strength and blood to keep going , she soon falls asleep.
with sin
sin has been calling june's phone for the pass 20 minutes after the 15th phone call he decided to go to her house.
getting there he opens the door realizing it's unlocked walking in closing and locking the door yelling her name as he walks to her room getting no response
seeing no one he looks in the bathroom bc the door was open.. what he saw made his heart stop. rushing to her taking her wrapping a towel around her picking her up taking her in her room.
as he was laying her down she started waking up, staring at sin we she was fully awake . sin just shakes his head in disbelief looking at her
"man why tf you did that shit" he says looking at her arms and thighs.
she just stares at him not saying anything "june wtf wrong wit you bruh why you doing this shit"
"i-i.." she looks down looking at her arms and the dried up blood "i'm sorry.."
he sits on the bed still looking at her "c'mere" she gets up and goes to him .
he pulls her on his lap wrapping his arms around her "why you did it ma.." he says putting his head in the crack of her neck
"i-i don't.. i'm sorry sincere" she says shaking her head "i'm sorry"
"don't do that shit no more" he say's holding her "lets gts mama we'll talk about this later" he gets up laying her down then lays down after her .
she falls asleep a bit after, sin stares at her.. he never felt this way about someone ever so this was different for him. he didn't know what to do or how to feel, he just knew be wanted this girl in his life for sure..
short chapter.. um that was really sad kinda had a breakdown while writing this..but to anyone reading this pls don't hurt yourself. you are beautiful and amazing in every way, you are loved and shit i love you for even reading this . ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT SOMEONE LOVES YOU!! (really bad at this but i'm trying 💀)
