[dead soul] (scaramouche x fem reader)

2. I suppose this is goodbye

(REMINDER: IT'S BASED ON Y/N'S P.O.V)

I find myself staring at mother's grave for a while thinking about all those sweet memories the two of us made together. My mother was kind and caring, a real mother anyone could ask for. The tenderness she gave me could never be filled with the joy i experienced. Dying at a young age was a terrible accident that could've happened to my mother. she used to cheer me up everyday at the shrine, telling me how much my father would've loved me if he didn't die before laying his eyes on his only precious child.

I was speaking to her even though i was aware of her, not answering me or give me a helping hand anymore, just like a everyday report of how I'm doing and how things are changing.

"Mother, I have decided to leave the Narukami shrine." Tears appeared slowly creating me a blur vision "lady Guuji requested me with a new job, I know it's hard to leave shrine but she raised me when you were gone and I thought I gotta accept it. Maybe I can finally pay off her kindness towards me all these years."

"But don't worry mom. when I got a time to come back and pay shrine a visit, I'll gladly bring you bunch of Dendrobium too."

A beautiful fall breeze moved my hair along in a wind blowing direction. I was certain i could do this. if there was someone who believed in me, it would've been none other than the fox lady.
I thought to myself 'I just don't know how to inform kuki about this.'

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By the time i came back to the Narukami shrine, yae miko was standing infront of the sacred sakura probably admiring the tree as always. "oh dear! You're back sooner than I had imagined. Is this suppose to be a goodbye or decline?"

Yae miko always had ways of teasing people and messing around and with her impossible attitude, she could make me feel guilty about what i should say and it could only mean she had an amazing communication skill but in a way i could get stuck in the middle of it wondering i can't even say something that matches the conversation anymore.

I guess it was one of the reasons i admired her so much, i always looked up to her and she also helped me through a lot. She was also like a mother to me. "I think this is where that we should part ways."