You put me in a trance I couldn't quite escape,
The perfect hypnotic space.
Every word I write about you whispers I miss you,
So golden, but you painted me blue.
I know I loved you with all my heart,
Yet,
I can't see why it wasn't enough to make it last.
Everyone says that I deserve better,
But I saw a part of you,
That nobody else could ever decipher.
I guess I fell for a version of you that didn't even exist,
Was it really my fault that I trusted you with all of this?
I know there was more to us neither of us could say,
Yet,
I can't see why you backed away.
I loved you, maybe I still do,
Maybe I don't,
How could I not?
You were me in just another font.
I gave you too much but it wasn't enough,
I wished you'll come around and call it a bluff.
I thought about all the different ways it could end
Yet,
I can't see why you chose to play pretend.
I had that feeling that it won't work,
I still helplessly fell,
You taught me a secret language,
I can't speak with anyone else.
The promises of forever are never true,
You broke my heart but I can't bring myself to hate you.
I almost forgot how to live again,
Hope whispered your name and taught me how to breathe through the pain.
I try to find some excuse of why you broke ties,
Yet,
I can't see why only I have to pay the price.
