Always start over

Just call it a friend kiss to shut you up.

"Rachel, Rachel, calm down" said Shelby as I looked at her speechless.
I nodded my head and said "is this really happening!!" I ran out her office and ran to the glee club. Everyone starred as I walked to seat.
"Woah Rachel what happened?" Whispered Finn
"Nothing Finn"i said as I looked back and saw puck starring at me.
I looked back at Mr.Schue as he began talking about nationals.
"Guys,nationals is In a few weeks so , Rachel you have a solo oh and you have to do a duet with...puck" said Mr.Schue as my eyes began open wide. Shelby looked at will surprised and whispered in his ear. " no not him....Rachel hates. Him and he just kissed her on the lips a few minutes ago."😐
"But this out only chance" whispered Mr.Schue.
Shelby looked at me and whispered "sorry" the bell rang and that meant it was lunch time. I went in the lunchroom, sat at my lonely table and started to write a song. I call it "Cannon Ball"
I can't wait to show Mr.schue my new song, and plus after lunch we are going to the auditorium. I thought, as someone touched my shoulder, it was Finn.
Finn smiled a d sat next to me as Quinn looked at us from the other table. "Can you tell me what happened today?"
"If I tell you, will you promise to keep it a secrete."I said as I looked at him deeply in the eyes.
"Yes, stop giving me that creepy eyes thing." He said as I laughed a little.
"Puck... Kissed me" Finn got up from his chair as I looked surprised.
"Where is he?" He yelled as everyone looked at him.
"Sit down Finn" I said as I pulled him back down.
"Okay okay I'm good " said Finn as he say down. "What are you writing?"
" A song " I said as Finn smiled .
"Can I hear it?" He asked
"No not yet, I'm singing it later on after lunch since the glee club is practicing there. I said as I got up and walked to the auditorium to look for Will.
No one was there so I might as well practice my song, I said in my head.
I gave the background singers and the band the notes and started to sing.
"Break down
Break down

Break down
I was scared to death I was losing my mind
Break down
I couldn't close my eyes I was pacing all night, oh, no,
I think I found the light at the end of the tunnel (and my doubts)
I couldn't find the truth I was going under

But I won't hide inside
I gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out
Lonely inside and light the fuse
Light it now, light it now, light it now

And now I will start living today, today, today
I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I'll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I'll fly, I'll fly, I'll fly like a cannonball
--all of a sudden the glee club walks in without me knowing.so I keep on singing--
Freedom
I let go of fear and the peace came quickly
Freedom
I was in the dark and then it hit me
I chose suffering and pain in the falling rain
I know, I gotta get out into the world again

But I won't hide inside
I gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out, gotta get out
Lonely inside and light the fuse
Light it now, light it now, light it now

And now I will start living today, today, today
I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I'll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I'll fly, I'll fly, I'll fly like a cannonball

Break down
I was scared to death I was losing my mind
Break down
I gotta get out into the world again

And now I will start living today, today, today
I close the door
I got this new beginning and I will fly
I'll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I'll fly, I'll fly, I'll fly like a cannonball, like a cannonball, like a cannonball
I'll fly, I'll fly, I'll fly like a cannonball"
When the lights began to fade I saw the whole glee club sitting down, clapping.
"Wow Rachel that was awesome" said Finn
"I agree" said Mr. Schue as he came up the stage and put his arm around me. " I think this is a good song for nationals." He said as Shelby's and him smiled.
"Yay" people cheered.
----in a few months NATIONALS ---
We all got in out spots and I was the first person to sing.
Finn smiled as I sand my solo heart out and started to cry. While singing cuz that happens to me a lot.
When I was done Santana and Mercedes sang Rolling In The Deep, by: Adele. When they were done me and puck were next and last. The song we were singing was one last time.
I didn't really think it was a good Idea. In a few minutes when the song was done puck was just suppose to freeze and look at me. He grabbed my hand, twirled me and kissed me. But that was once the curtains were slowly closing .
I looked at puck in the eyes and started to cry again so I walked away. Quinn nodded her head at puck and followed me to the bathroom.
"Rachel?" Quinn called as she saw my legs in a straw as I started to make myself throw up
"Rachel stop that" said Quinn
"WHY DO YOU CARE!" I said as I started to cry even more.
"Because I know why you are making yourself throw up....it's because you think you are going to get in trouble right, you think you are a bad person.Rachel i saw, he's the one who kissed you, so I'm not mad at you,I'm mad at him."
When I opened the door I walked to the sing and cleaned my face. As I smiled and Quinn hugged me tight.
"Now let's get back out there"said Quinn as she took my hand and I froze. "Come on" said Quinn
"How about if it happened again how about if Finn starts to fight with puck how abou----" Quinn kissed me on the lips and I lit up really fast.
"WHY DID YOU DO THAT!?!?" I yelled as I moved back.
"I just did it to shut you up....now I'm not a lesbian soo don't think that way...let's just call it a friend kiss. And don't tell anyone about it." Said Quinn as she took my hand and dragged me out the bathroom speechless.
Puck looked at me as I looked away and walked to Mercedes and the other girls.
Finn and puck looked at each other and then looked away as Shelby and Mr.Schue came in the room.
"You okay rach?" Asked Shelby as she looked at me deeply in the eyes.
"I'll tell you at home" I said as we all walked to the stage to see who won.... Then finally the announcer comes and opened the card . "AND THE WINER IS, MCKINDELY HIGH GLEE!!" Said the guy as we all jumped up .