Nothing Done

Part one

I promised my friend Kayla that I would start writing again. To not be a bad friend I am deciding to keep my word and start writing again. After almost 3 year of not writing, (except for school and even then I didn't do most of the assignments) I feel like I am out of the swing of things, and also my life is also out of the swing.

I'd like to start off on where I finished last time I was writing. It was around 2012, I lost a significant amount of weight, and I had my first boyfriend. Oh my he was so good looking, and I attributed him dating me because somehow he liked that I wrote, and now that I had him I decided "well I don't need to write anymore".

I wish I could go back and slap myself. Yell at myself that "you might feel like you could marry a boy one day, and then the next not give a damn if he dies or not." I learned this from a few experiences, but they individually don't matter. They are all special in there own way, yes, but they all add up to what I am now. And what am I now? Depends on who you ask. If you ask me I would say "I don't really know", and I don't.

I have always considered myself an open book. If anyone wanted to know anything about me they could just ask and I would tell them. This obviously results in almost everyone that I tell this to, they end up asking about my sex life. My sex life has been very odd and varied, in age and body type, and after people discover this, I am labeled as this. Weather they consider me a "player", "slut", or "just a typical gay guy" I am labelled by this somehow.

I have always wanted to have a detailed book on every sexual encounter that I have ever had. Besides being a long book, I feel that it would be an interesting way to start my writing. Helping me vividly describe things in detail. Well I think I will start. Idk what I will call it. Maybe something like "sexual encounters of an Indiana boy" or maybe "SINdiana" oh I kinda like that one. I will go confer with my friends to see what title is the best. But I do defiantly like SINdiana. Get it it's like sinning in Indiana.