Mysty's Book of Oneshots.

Pictures (NovaHD)

*Warning sad read at own risk*

James sat in his dark office as more tears fell down his face, hoping the light from his computer screen didn't illuminate his face too much. He watched as his ex and their current boyfriend laughed and talked. How did he move on, wasn't he supposed to be upset. They broke up after all, why isn't he upset. Why does he get to be happy. He should miss him, like he misses him. James felt a new wave of tears fall down his face as he watched the two part but not before they shared a kiss. This is how almost every day went when he would come into the office and try to work. As always james found himself pulling up the pictures he just couldn't delete, even though all the others begged him to just rid of them. James couldn't, he couldn't forget all the good times. The times he was happy, truly happy. He sighed sadly as he looked at the first picture in the collection. It was the first picture the two had ever taken together after they had started dating.

"Come on Aleks, just one picture. Please~" James begged as he held up his hands. "I don't know why we need to take a picture." Aleks huffed out as he moved closer to James. "So we can show other later and reminisce." James said with a goofy smile on his face. "That is cheesy as fuck and you know it." Aleks said grumpily. "Come on it will be fun to talk about today years from now. Now smile." James said as he put an arm around Aleks. 

James smiled sadly at the picture, Aleks hasn't smiled and still had a grumpy look on his face. He remembers telling the other "well at least there's a funny story to go with the picture.", it didn't seem so funny now. Just sad and made James sadder. Maybe it was a sign of how things would turn out. James just sighed, not wanting to think about that and wiped his soaked face off with his jacket sleeve. The darknet moved to the next picture, which caused more tears to fall down his once dry face. This picture was a picture from their first anniversary. They both looked happy, James was he knew that but was Aleks.

"Come on Aleks just a few more, pictures." James said giving the other puppy dog eyes. "How many more do you need to take James?" Aleks asked slightly annoyed with the other. "As many as possible, i never want to forget this night!" James said excitedly. "But you don't need a picture of every little thing." The Russian said angrily. "Ally please, i'm really excited. Its been one year since we started dating. The happiest year of my life. I want as many pictures as i can get." James said trying to reason with the other. "Fine what ever, just make it quick. I'm sick of having my picture taken." Aleks sighed out while James clapped happily. "Thank you Ally, I love you so much." James said as he walked over and kissed Aleks' cheek. "Love you too." Aleks grumbled out, putting on a smile for the other.

"Love you too." James could still hear the way he said it. At the time it didn't as forced as it did now. Did he mean it... ever... That question made sobs break from the others mouth. "He meant it he had to, he wouldn't say it if he didn't mean it." James tried to reason with himself to calm his sobs down and it worked, mostly. These pictures, these memories always made him question the other but he knew he was just overthinking it. Aleks loved him all those years ago, he had too. Why would he lie for three years if it wasn't true. James shook off the thoughts and moved on. The next picture was from valentine's day, the day they also came out to the fans.

"I don't know James, maybe we should wait." Aleks said skeptically. "Ally, baby it will be fine and what better day then today! Today is all about love, why not share ours?" James asked as he took Aleks' hand into his. "I don't know, what if we break up? we would have to explain to the fans." Aleks said as he had a look of uncertainty. "Aleks i don't plan on leaving you any time and you don't plan to leave me, why worry about what might not happen. We've been together for a year, I think it's time." James said as he kissed the back of Aleks' Hand. "Ok fine, how we doing this babe?" Aleks asked a now smiling James.

James choked up as he thought about that memory, maybe he should have listen to him. The day he had to tell the fans killed him all over. He had never had a video be so hard to make but he kept breaking down in the video. He soon said fuck it and left in all his tears. It hurt the fans to see the other so sad, so upset but they were there for him as best as they could. He was thankful for that much and he was also thankful they didn't shit on the other too much. He checked every comment on the others videos to make sure, he doesn't know why but he did.

James moved on with the pictures each having their own happy memory that now seemed sad. Each picture caused more tears to fall from James' eyes, even when he thought that he had no tears left. He soon got to the picture that were the hardest to look at, they were the pictures where the memory start to get sad on their own. From just before his heart got shattered. The first picture to start off the line off really bad memories was from their third anniversary.

"I don't know why you have to take pictures of us at every event, during every holiday." Aleks grumbled as he stood for the picture James wanted to take of them. "Because Ally they are special occasions i want to remember them forever." James said with a pout. "They are just days like any other." The Russian said as he crossed his arms over his chest. "Aleks, they are not just days... They mean something to me.. Don't they mean anything to you?" James asked a hurt look on his face. "Yes but not to the point i need a picture of everyday." Aleks almost spat out. "They are just days and if we to break up they'd go back to being just days, i don't see the point of the pictures. So you can cry over them later." The Russian added with a scoff at the end. "Aleks that's only if we break up, that's not going to happen... Right?" James asked unsure if he wanted answer.  "Of course not, you worry too much." Aleks said as he dropped his arms. "I know i'm sorry." James said as he leaned into Aleks.

That moment was where James would say sign one first showed up. The others thought differently but didn't push too much in the end. From this point on it got harder and harder for James to get pictures for his memory book. One day it all just stopped, Aleks said no and walked away. Leaving James to sit there and wonder why and what he did. A few days latter he found out what. Aleks had stopped loving him, he doesn't know when but he'd point at that day. James' heart  broke all over again from the mere thought of that day. He wanted to hat the other, to want bad things to happen to him but he couldn't. He never wanted any bad to come to him and as much as it hurt him to see him happy he was slightly happy he was. He still had hope the other would realize his mistake and take him back. Maybe just maybe he'll come in here and see how much James misses him and take him back, just maybe someday.

A knock at his door pulled him from his thoughts and for a second he had hope that today was the day. Sadly not though, it was just Seamus. "James you can't keep doing this to yourself." The blond said as he walked into the dark office. "But Seamus..." James went to say before being cut off. "James we both know that's not going to happen. Him and Kevin are happy." Seamus said sadly knowing it hurt the other to hear. "They can't be, he can't be. He was happy with me first." The heartbroken male sobbed out. "I know buddy, wanna go home?" Seamus asked already knowing the answer. James just nodded his head as tears fell from his face. The older of the two helped James up, shutting of his things before starting to walk out. Aleks noticed the two leaving like he did every time and went back to work, just like every time. Aleks at one point did love the other but it didn't last and as soon as he couldn't take the other anymore he dumped him to the side. He had no intention of ever going back but that wouldn't stop James from hoping and dreaming, it sure won't stop him from balling his eyes out all day and all night.

*A/N*

So hope this wasnt too sad... ok i do i wanted to write some thing sad cuz well im sad so eh why the fuck not this. hope you enjoyed and look out for a new chapter of my pets soon~~~

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