Rottmnt Donnie angst :D

6.

Raph sighed a breath of relief.

Only Raph. He can't hurt you. Good. Krang are gone, can't hurt anyone again. Ever.

Donnie: "Raphiee?" Oh god, his voice sounded like a frog crawled inside his throat.

Raph nodded, probably. Everything was blurry and weird.

Raph: "it's okay Dee, just me." Raph's voice was gentle and soothing.

Donnie looked around, he was in the medbay. Okay. This is definitely not fine, this is really really bad. With two really's! Wait, he realised this earlier? Probably? Okay, so loss of memory. This is fine.

Leo walked in, saw Donnie, and shook his head. "Donatello Hamato, you lied to us."

Uhm, what now? He wasn't a liar. Obviously. It was just, keeping everyone safe... Yeah... It's not like they can blame him, everyone was injured! It was the least he could do! Patch up his own shell so they can focus on recovery, and now look at Leo, he's walking now! Sure unsteady but he's still walking!

Donnie: "About what?" He asked, playing dumb. If his dum dum brothers thought he would express his true emotions they were wrong. He's the tech guy. The smart one. The...

what if they help you?

what if they do care?

'they dont. "

Donnie sat up again, this time ignoring everything around him. Leo was just, well there and Raph was standing next to him, towering over Donnie.

Leo: "you know exactly what I mean, your shell!" Leo threw up his hands, "you whined about me sacrificing myself so I should get to whine about you ignoring your own needs!" Leo seemed upset. Oh.

He hadn't meant to cause distress. It was for their own good, right? But that's not good if they're sad. So he's bad?

Mikey was behind Raph and then spoke: "Dee, you look after yourself, your independent and that's good. But neglecting your injuries and needs for ours is something you should never do! You should ask for help!" Dr Feelings seemed to come out and Donnie fidgeted with his hands.

Raph "Look Donnie, I know after the Krang life was pretty hard but-" Donnie had heard enough.

Donnie: "Hard? Hard!? My whole life has been hard! Dad ignored me because he was too engrossed in his shows. I can't sleep because of I'm so scared someone's going to break through MY security! Everything here that's keeping us safe is mine! There's so much pressure! You all expect me to just automatically move on from the technodrome?! I had the shittiest sensory nightmare there, I was the ship! I was everything! And Leo almost died! " Donnie was in tears at this point, unable to put more of his insecurities into words.

"M' sorry guys." Donnie sighed and looked down at his hands which were in his lap.

Leo: " Donnie, I'm so sorry. We. Are sorry. " Everyone was tearing up now, his outburst had shocked everyone. The fact Donnie works so hard to keep them safe was heartwarming, but his stress about it is another fact that isn't very fun.

"M' sorry I'm sorry! I didn't mean to cry!" Shaking his head, Donnie made a half choke which turned into a sob.

Mikey: "there's no need to apologise, I know dad ignored you, he ignored us all. But, nonetheless, we should have checked in with you. And for that Donald, I'm sorry. Hug? Or is it too much?" Donnie made an open gesture with his arms to show he wanted a hug.

Mikey promptly flew into his older brother's arms on the bed, taking care to not injure his own again. (From opening the portal, I decided, he has scars.)

They hugged and Leo joined in and so did Raph.

Maybe life was alright.

Maybe he was going to be fine.

But there was a voice in his mind. And it wasn't his.