Realisation

be for the big move

She got up to her cat meowing as usual for food she got up and went into the kitchen and feed the meowing cat and when she was done she went to the bathroom to brush her teeth and hair she did my makeup she was not feeling vary good but she still got dressed and still got on the bus and she still went to school and when she got home her grandma put her hand on her forehead and told her she was not going to school tomorrow and she feel asleep as soon as her head hit the pillow she did not feel good the next bay ether she sleeped most the day and she was sitting in the living room her grandma was looking through all are moves and she fond a move that they have not seen yet and she said "here put this in the DVD player" she got up tock the move out of her hand and put it in then lied on the floor and was watching the move with her grandma but  half way through the move she fell asleep later her grandma woke her up when she went to bed she told her she should go to bed so she got up and went to bed saying "goodnight grandma I love you" her grandma replayed with sweet words of good nights . She woke up with her cat on her chest she looked at the clock and looked back at the meowing cat and said "it is not morning yet go back to sleep Sammy" then she saw the light on in her grandmas room so she got up and went in her room she put her hand on her and said "you fell asleep with the light on again"she then realised something but she didn't believe it so she said" Hey grandma get up HEY GET UP!!! "She did not respond to her that's when she realist fully that her grandma had died so she grabbed her phone and dialled 911 a woman answered "911 what is your emergency" she was freaking out so she said "my grandma is not moving and she is as cold as ice and she is not waking up." The women on the line said back in a voice that pissed her off especially when she said "stay calm miss" she hates it when people tell her to stay calm . The ambulance was there in 10 or 20 minutes she was in the living room crying her eyes out and  was a emotional wreck and she was so freaking out. She went to her step dads house he is the only family she has in this town she lived in. She get there and get a unwonted hug and then she went in to her bedroom there and she feel asleep immediately and when she woke up and looked around thinking *so it was not a dream after all* she get up and went into the kitchen and saw her mother was sitting at the table she ran over and hugged her crying into her chest as soon as she felt her arms around her felt safe and cried there was no stopping it felt so good to be in her arms she felt safe and she never wanted to lose that feeling. The pastor to the church that her and her grandma went to came in the next hour or so. They talked about her funeral or if she's going to be cremated she stepped up and said "she always wanted to be cremated it was her choice she never wanted to be buried in the ground so I could always have her with me". She want to school the hole week they were packing it was hard to see all her friends for the last time on the last day of school well the last day at this school her and all her friends were crying. Some of the girls on her swim team and 3 of her best friends came to the funeral with her . She guessed it was to support her she was a complete mess she was falling apart she didn't know what to do next if they weren't there she don't think she would be able to make it through the funeral. The next morning they left it was a long car ride and her cat was sleeping on her lap for most of it. It hurt to say goodbye to the life she had in that town. But she new hopefully she would find new friends and fast. Unpacking was gust as hard as packing. It was hard to breath the next three days. She was so depressed she was cutting herself. She thought if she cut a little bit more all the pain would go away but it never did.