I have an unrequited love toward someone whom I truly love. I can say that we're close since then, but, it became awkward because of the sudden confession that I made last two months. It's not a regretful decision, 'cause it's my feelings and I don't tell him to choose me over someone he truly love.
"So, did you have fun yesterday?"i ask him to avoid silence.
But he just nod for his answer.
It breaks my heart but I just smile as if I'm fine.
He tried to act normal like nothing confession happened back then, but he can't avoid the awkwardness.
" Still awkward when you're near me?" i jokingly said.
"I tried, but I can't avoid it. Sorry." he sadly said without looking at me.
"Don't be sorry, Axy. I told you right, that I will handle my own feelings. For me, unrequited love is more fine than one-side love, that's why I confess," mahinahong paliwanag ko sa kanya.
"You had feelings towards someone whom you love, so don't let go of it just because of my confession. Love her with all your heart and I will just support you, that's love means for me." dagdag ko pa.
He had a lot of thoughts because of my confession and I hate seeing him struggling because of it. I hate seeing him stress because of me.
" You know your more important to me, right?" his tearing while saying those words.
" I'm important because we're friends for a long time, and you want to protect me because of my personality, 'cause I'm still so immature," i calmly said.
"That's why I don't want to break our friendship, dim. I can't love you more than friends." malungkot nitong saad.
" I know, Axy, don't mind my feelings for you. I know you like Astreid, the girl you always with. The girl you spend almost your all time when we go to Arcade together. I didn't know you'd bring her there, that time." I tease him to enlighten the atmosphere.
" So, that's why you left without telling me?"nag-aalalang tanong nito.
I hate being assuming but I feel that his worried about me.
" No, I just give you a chance to have a date with her. I know you like her for a very long time, two years I guess?"I lied, just to make sure na hindi na naman niya sisisihin ang sarili niya sa nangyari.
" Thank God, I really think it's because of me. So, what's your plan?" he softly said.
" I'll continue my feelings for you till I felt my heart won't beat for you, nothing else." i sincerely said.
" I'm going to meet Astreid this weekend, we have plans. So, we can't play games together."he seriously said.
" It's fine, we're not kids anymore."tanging saad ko.
" Sulking?"biglang saad nito.
" I'm not. I'm going to go to America this weekend."i calmly said.
Yes, I plan to have a vacation in America this weekend para mag-isip-isip.
" Kaya mo bang pumunta mag-isa?" agad na tanong nito.
" Hmm, I'm not baby anymore Axy."natatawang saad ko.
"But, your afraid of heights, dim. Are you sure di mo kailangan ng escort?" nag-alalang tanong nito.
" I'm not blind naman so kaya ko to. You have plans with Astreid rhis weekend pagkakataon mo na 'yon.' Wag mo ng sayangin pa." ngiting turan ko sa kanya.
" I can cancel it for you,"he softly said.
" No, don't cancel it because of me. You might regret it."mahinahon kong saad sa kanya.
" Then, ihahatid nalang kita sa airport this weekend. That's fine naman for you 'di ba?"mahinhin nitong sambit.
" That's fine kung hindi time ng pagkikita niyo ang flight ko."pagkaklaro ko sa kanya.
" It won't, don't worry."kalmadong saad nito.
Dumating nga ang araw ng sabado at flight ko na tungong Amerika, it's gonna be my first time na walang kasama na umalis.
" Are you gonna be fine?"pagsisigurado nito.
" Yes, don't mind me. Hinihintay ka na niya."sambit ko dito.
Pupunta pa siya sa date nila ni Astreid pagbalik niya.
" Call me when you arrived, okay?"he softly said before leaving the airport.
" Have a safe flight, dim."huling saad nito.
Ang totoo ay doon ko hihilumin ang aking mga nararamdaman. It will take a year bago ako makaka move-on or more. Dun muna ako titira pansamantala at dun muna ako mag-aaral ng college. This day is gonna be the last time that we see each other, unrequited love is not easy but it's fine. It's love after all. The thing is both of us are not inlove with each other.
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Short Story"I tried, but I can't avoid it. Sorry." he sadly said without looking at me. "Don't be sorry, Axy. I told you right, that I will handle my own feelings. For me, unrequited love is more fine than one-side love, that's why I confess," mahinahong pali...
