For the people ive hurt

I always hear things like " oh I cut myself " and i always read things like " I dug the knife into my skin just to feel the release of everything". Well tonight I tried it I was feeling so bad about the way ive hurt people and how I hurt the ones I love.

So I went to my room it was 8:42 on a sunday everyone was gone to a party and I was alone.

I went to the kitchen to get a knife and then I went to my room and cut the back of my wrist the blood flowed outta me like a river, the story's are wrong it dose not make the pain go away it makes it all worse.

On monday I went to school and I wore a sweater all day because I was ashamed of who ive become and who I am.

I had shop so I wore rubber bands around my wrist and of course it hurt but it was worth it because ive hurt people like that and I don't ever wanted them to hurt because of me again.

And ever time I move I feel there pain for the bands rub against the cuts and ever time my rubber bands got red i

washed them in hot water to make them burn.

Now maybe i'm wrong to do this but ive hurt people and i'm never going to hurt them again. And as long as they don't hurt as much as me ill be just fine with that.