Warning slight sexual content (omg, finally😱?)
And also long chapter woooooo!
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Yeosangs Pov
"Were in the mountains?" I looked over to Hongjoong.
"Yep, for today and tomorrow." He smiled. "Everyone have there stuff?" Everybody nodded.
"Let's go in then!!" Seonghwa said, grabbing the two closest to him and dragging them in.
We all walked into the big cabin, and it was so beautiful and looked very cozy. Jongho went and plobbed down on the couch and pulled Seonghwa with him. Jongho being touchy? Wow.
"Guys, there's a pool outside!" Mingi said, pointing out the glass door, smiling excitedly.
"There's a hot tub, too!" Seonghwa said, still in Jonghos hold. I walked over to the door and slid it open, and walked out. It's very beautiful, nature is beautiful.
"If you guys wanna get in, you guys can, I'm going to go and pick up, so food, ok?" Hongjoong said, grabbing the car keys and walking towards the door.
"Be careful, honey!" Seonghwa shouted from the couch.
"Hey, wait up, joongie. I'll come with you!" I skipped to him.
"OK, let's go then." He turned around and smiled. "You all better behave! I'll ground you all to your bedrooms if ya'll dont!" Hongjoong shouted.
"Ok, dadd- OW WHAT THE HELL YUNHO."
Wooyoung could be heard as we exited the door. We both got in the car, and I sat in front since no one else was there.
We sat in silence before Hongjoong spoke up.
"Hey, yeosang?"
"Yeah, Hongjoong?" I looked at him, turning my head.
"Why are you so mean to yourself?" I paused at his question and looked out the window.
"Uhh, like, what do you mean?" Let's just play dumb
"Don't play dumb with me, babe." I snapped my head back to him at the nickname, babe? BABE? WHAT'S HAPPENING.
"If I answer the question, you have to answer a question I have for you, ok?" I Fidgeted with a button on my shots.
"Only if you tell the truth, k?" He said, looking at me reassuring me it's ok.
"Um ok so basically, uh well, ok, so I've had many past relationships that ended badly and / or were toxic or abusive. So I'm sure you can imagine the kinds of stuff they've said to me. I also just don't have a lot of self-confidence. I don't feel important, I don't feel "special" as some of you call me, I feel annoying, I feel like I'm a bother to you all, i feel like some toy people use for there gross thoughts. I don't know what you all see in me. But im glad you guys see something."
I took a breath.
"I have lovely parents. They've never done anything bad to me, its just the people I've friended, and unfortunately, dated that have made me think such things of myself. I don't hate myself. I just don't like myself much, you know?" I felt Hongjoong look at me and look back at the road. He placed his hand on my thigh and rubbed it. "I'm sorry that I'm always asking if I'm a bother or annoying, I'm sorry for anything negative I say about myself. It's just hard not to think it because I've been told it many times."
"Don't be sorry, it's not your fault. It's the bad people's fault, ok? Hopefully, I didn't put you in a bad mood by asking the question," " we care for you alright, yeosang? We care for you very much and will do everything to make you love yourself, ok?" He said and smiled softly
"Ok." Was all I said? If I said more, i might cry.
"Thank you, Hongjoong. I trust you all very much."
"OK, so what was your question, hm?" Changing the subject and patting my thigh.
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