Scarlett's Ring

The begining of the end

Dear kitty
I feel like my life is about to crumble, today we had to do a speaking exam and my teacher shouts "lily" in front of the class, "okay" I reply back. I stand in front of the class and start talking " racism is not as bad as it used to be, it is still around and getting worse. Society does not help a doctor says ...... a doctor said ......... " it was bad enough I messed up but I could not stand and look at everyone for much longer I had to get out it felt like everyone was pointing and laughing and to top it off I could not open the door, I get out of the class and Ka follows behind keeping me out until the person who came after me had finished. Ka and I walk in but miss sends me back out "never leave the classroom without my permission, ever" "but...." I replied miss interrupted before I could reply, "you might suffer with panic attack and all the rubbish but you still have to do it !! When I come in I find out that a boy and the back of my class took the mick, I'm glad I was the one that had a melt down because if I had not and Ka or Emily had and he had commented on it he would not survive I might have panic attacks but I also have fists and I don't care how many detentions I would of got I would kill him !!.
The school phoned my dad, just so he knew how I was getting on, he booked me and appointment with my mums old psychologist.
My dad picks me up from school with some clothes in the back, I run into a porta potty and get changed into my red skater dress with black tights and my black slip on shoes and quickly slip my long aurbun coloured hair into a waterfall braid. "Off we go" dad sings and I get in the car.
We get to the ladies house and it's a big vintage house with lace curtains and black doors with a beautiful garden. "Come in" she shouts, inside has a massive golden staircase with a living room the size of my house it was red and gold themed her whole house it was either gold and red or black and white. "I hear what's been going on and it's completely normal, and from what you have been through its fine" the nice lady says "my name is Lily" I reply "lily is a beautiful name it means innocence; purity and beauty". " my name is Hollie" "doesn't that mean love and companionship, and want to work with others to achieve peace and harmony". "Okay,back to what you came her for, here is some Medicine, it will help" "thank you" I reply back. "it's okay, I will see you next month". when we leave without touching the door it slams behind us.