one week camping and no internet. No internet means no contact with my lover aka fiance. A day without him is already pain but an entire week will be really really hard for both. Since I'm a really forgettable person, I write down what my thoughts a...
the ride here from 8.00 am - 5.30 pm was already pretty hard but now 6.15 pm I lost it and started crying alot. I miss you. I miss your voice, I miss the way you tell me you love me, I miss your laugh, I miss you telling about your day, I miss you talking in general. I'm sitting on the cold street. The ride here would've been just 4 hours but it took longer because there was a car accident mid way. A big transport car (LKW idk the English word) was in flames, burning alot. The firefighters were trying to get there but the roads were full of cars that were unable to leave space for them so they had to drive all the way around it. So it took really long. I listened to my favorite music playlist until "baby" by Justin Bieber came. Of course I first thought of you so I listened to it with already tears but I held them back. After a while I was bored and went outside of the car, checking how far they are and stuff. There was a man with a cute dog. I was petting the dog a little. Not gonna lie, I figured that bigger dogs that play a little rough, kinda scare me a little. In these moments I just really wanted to hug you and hold you close. Also before we came to the accident scene, we listened to music loudly and we were vibing so much that it kinda made my hyperactivity kick in pretty much. Not for that long tho. Then I missed you again.
I don't really know why and I can't explain why I feel like this but the thought that I won't be able to text you or call you for an entire week kills me inside. I can't even calm myself down. I don't want to be without you a day. I know this week is gonna be hard. Tymoteusz and Mateusz made spaghetti because they thought it'd cheer me up. Sadly it was the opposite and it made me cry more because I thought about you saying it's your favorite food. It's hard. I mean we have like a hotel near but we sleep outside. I can't watch the light of your charger this week to fall asleep. I cant even charge my phone or IPad there so I'm sitting right now at 8.58 pm in the bathroom of the hotel with 21%, still charging it. I'm tired but not tired to fall asleep, no. I'm tired of not seeing you already. I was about to have another panic attack because of missing you but then I concentrated on the colors of your charger and followed their paths with my eyes. It was so hypnotising that I calmed down and kept starring for a while.
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HELP- REMEMBER ME SAYING I'M ON THE FLOOR OF THE BATHROOM?? well there are two rooms connected. One with a shower and one with toilets. EVERY guy on this floor in this hotel shares this bathroom. so yeah.. It's currently 9.14 pm and someone just went to shower in the other room and I'm kinda stuck here now. Oh well 27%. Gotta charge more anyways so it's not that dramatic. I'll just wait until they're done. AND until I'm at at least 60%. This is gonna be a long night.
Alright now it's 9.29 pm, the person is finally gone and I have 31% so I'm at half way already. I think I might be going out at 10.00 pm - 10.15 pm. The floor is cold. I kinda edited earlier texts and added pictures or just larger distances between the times I wrote later on this. It's kinda calming to write down everything. The only porpoise for this is just that you have something to read about what was going on this entire week without contact with you. If I'd just tell you after, I'd forget most of it. Okay it's 9.32 pm and another person walked in so I'll quickly change my position.
Found a spot. In a room. It's 9.36 pm lol. We'll sleep in one of the rooms for today lmao. I'm pretty exhausted.
Mateusz literally found a charging port next to my bed soooooooooo I CAN SLEEP. YESSSSSSSSS. Or at least try to sleep. Still miss you yk? Won't change for a while I'd think. Since yesterday evening I know something that will make you really really happy! AND I'll tell you someday random so you better read all.
It's 11.02 pm, I can't sleep but I'm really comfortable. I listen to your voice on repeat, see the light of your charger and whenever I wanna see you, I look at my background. I love you so much. Goodnight.
