Pieces of My Thoughts

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Have you ever wonder as to what is your purpose in life?

Have you pondered about it once?

As to where you were in a trance and think about what you want in life.

How do you want to maneuver your life?

Do you think life is such a misery or a blessing?

Was there a time when you think that you are being left behind?

I did, but every time I think of it. I always pray to God and tell myself that everything has its own time. Mine will come and while mine is still on its way. I am going to take my time clapping for other people's success.

It's okay to take your time in figuring out what you really want in life. Someone can be in there 30's. Yet, they still don't know what they want in their lives. People have different timeframes, we navigate our own lives the way we want to.

Blessed are the people who get to decide for themselves. But, how about other people who cannot even decide for themselves? Some people are being navigated by their parents or other people's decision.

I find it suffocating, sometimes, it makes me wonder, how it feels. You don't get to decide for yourself because someone is doing it for you.

You wanna be an architect but your parents wants you to be a doctor. Because you love them, you have no choice but to take up Medicine. Since they will be the one who will be paying your tuition in the first place.

People who will tell you to smile even if you are broken inside. People who will always point your facial expression. It's suffocating how you cannot even express what you feel.

It's suffocating how you cannot even be yourself.
It's suffocating how you are not allowed to be yourself.

Because for other people, it's not good if you won't smile, even if you are broken inside.

It is so sickening to be under someone's navigation. The feeling that you wanna do this but cannot do it because someone might feel bad.

 
You have to smile even if you not are not okay. You have to be like this and that.

Last time I checked, I am a human being not a robot.

What's the purpose of having a mind if I cannot even use it?
I have my own life to live.

I am not here to please people.

Whether they like me or not because I am always poker face. I did not even do anything to them. If they don't like me for that reason. That's their problem, I'm not gonna please them. I have my own life to live or navigate.

If they cannot control you or make a hold of you. That's the time as to when they will paint you as the bad person. Because they cannot make use of you to do what they want.

That is why, go and live your life the way you wanted to live your life. So long as you are not stepping into someone else's toes, you will be good. Wherever you will be heading to in this world, you will be fine.