Help me. (C.D)

8.

As I pulled up to my house I quickly remembered Nash was coming over today. He lives like two houses down from me, previously in the school day I told him to come over when ever. I decided while I wait, I might as well touch up my makeup. I ran upstairs to my bathroom and pulled out my makeup bag. I quickly blended in some concealer, and my Urban Decay foundation.

It was already four, and school got out an hour ago, as I was about to put my phone down and go to the bathroom, the doorbell rang, I loudly sighed before running downstairs and answering the door. When I opened the door, my eyes met with a pair of blue ones.
"Hey Blake." He said while shoving his hands in his pockets.
"Hey.. Uhh come in." I said while opening the door more so he could walk in. We decided to sit on the couch. We sat there for a good 5 minutes before I finally said something.
"So, Nash. What did-" he quickly cut me off before rambling.
"Blake, I'm so sorry about the way I've been treating you over the years! You don't deserve it, Blake you are smart, beautiful, and I feel horrible about what had been said about you, or even to you, I was just wondering if we could.. I don't know start over?"

I was contemplating on the idea. But I finally made my decision.
"Hi, I'm Blake." I said while sticking my hand out for him to shake. He gladly excepted while smiling at me.
"Hey, I'm Nash." We both just laughed. He stayed over for a couple more hours.
"I should probably get going we have a long night ahead of us tomorrow." He said while winking at me.
"Oh, right the party."
"What? Do you not want to go?"
"No, I do.. I just had completely forgotten about it." That was a straight up lie, on the outside I probably looked fine about the whole thing, but on all honesty, I was terrified.
"Alright, I'll see you tomorrow Blake." He said while patting me on the back.
"Bye, Nash." I said while closing the door. I went upstairs, put my phone on its charger, while putting on pandora. I took off all my clothes an got in the shower.

I let the hot water hit my skin. When I'm in the shower, I feel like all my problems wash down the drain. After about 20 minutes of my time in the shower, I had decided on getting out. I wrapped a towel around my small fragile body. Something caught my eye about my body. My scares. I lightly touched them.
I remember why I did each and every one of them like it was yesterday.
I then looked at my body in general. I was way too skinny. The kind where if someone where to hold me tight enough, I could break in half. I'm not proud I have a thigh gap. If someone where to be walking down the street and saw a dog, but they could also see it's ribs, it's abuse towards the dog.

But if you saw a girls ribs, it's beautiful. This is the world we live in today. There's no possibility in running or hiding from it. We are stuck with our sucky generation.
When I put back on my clothes, I brushed my hair and put it in a pony tail. I laid there in my bed, wanting to sleep, but the problem was.. I wanted to sleep forever.

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Hey people! I'm sorry I haven't updated! I've been really busy with volleyball and crap, I have another chapter already written and ready to go! So be prepared, because it's about to get real😘 love you guys
-Kenn🍩