My Pretend Paradise

Figure it out

I wake up feeling like I didn't sleep at all. My muscles ache like I've been running for a very long time. I decide to take a shower in the hope my muscles might ease. I haven't looked at the time and am shocked when Jas knocks on my door telling me I'm going to be late. You see for me this is unheard of I am never late. I've never wanted to have a reason to get a lower ranking. I jump out of the shower with my still aching muscles and get dressed as quick as I can, not bothering to look at what I'm putting on. Which of course I regret as soon as I get in the car and realize I've put on one of my miniskirts and tank tops. Not exactly school attire. Well at least they are the school colours of green and purple so for today they'll have to do. I try my hardest not to speed but end up going a bit fast as I think about being handed my first ever detention notification. As I enter the parking lot I'm hyperventilating but soon realize that I have made it in time. I quickly jump out of the car and make a beeline for the elevator. Now you know those moments that happen in slow motion. I swear the next few minutes seemed like they went on for a month. The elevator door is closing, I start to run to catch it and run straight into a tall figure that knocks me flat. My eyes connect with his and in that moment I get lost in the ocean. It takes me a few seconds to realize he's talking to me. This is the second time he's seen me gawking while staring at him. I really need to tape my mouth shut.

"Hey are you okay?"

"Ah yeah sorry I'm fine"

"You should be, barging into people like that"

"What? it was accident I didn't mean to"

"Are you kidding? I saw you looking at me yesterday you did it on purpose so you could meet the new guy right"

"What? excuse me? you think I did what now?"

"Oh don't play dumb you girls are all the same, chasing after any guy you see"

"Are you kidding me right now? I don't have time for this new guy, get out of the way"

"I have a name you know"

"That's great now move"

"I'm Dean, pleased to meet you"

"How can you be pleased, a minute ago you thought I barged into you?"

"It's okay I forgive you but only cause you're so pretty"

"What? Me..huh..what? Oh I don't have time for this I'm really going to be late"

"You know most girls would be flattered"

"I'm not most girls, goodbye Dean"

"Goodbye clumsy pretty girl"

I finally make it to the elevator and the doors close behind me. I watch as the new boy, who simultaneously makes me what to punch something and my heart sing, smile and wave as I disappear up into the school and I can't tell if that makes me happy or sad. The rational part of me says it should make me extremely happy and I should avoid Dean at all costs sadly the little girly part of me is all giggly that a boy called me pretty. It actually makes me feel like vomiting. At least now I know what kind of guy he is so I can get him out of my mind and move on. Regrettably throughout the whole day he is basically all I think about and I go from being mad at him blaming me to happy that he called me pretty and back again. It's like my feelings are on a loop that just won't stop. The more I think about him the more crazy I feel and the less school work I seem to get done. At this rate it doesn't matter if I'm late anymore I'm screwed anyway. I decide my best option is to go and talk to him in our next break, however, I never get the chance. My pencil starts to shake on the bench.