Insomnia awakening my mind,
Bugging me like biting mosquitoes in this never ending darkness,
Open my laptop to see what I can find,
But sadly I remember that BEC turned off my Internet Access,
An oxymoron but it all becomes clear once given a little thought,
Relaxation of the mind follows as I look at the clock,
It's 2am....
The quietness of the 2 o'clock hour is slowly becoming a lullaby,
A sweet song being broken by the loud snoring of a loud old man,
But the tapping of an iPad screen is enough to quiet the noise just a little,
And as time passes the thoughts in my mind are becoming like a booming orchestra,
Eventually reducing his roars into the cries of a kitten,
With the loud beating of intent,
And the soft strumming of inspiration,
This is my 2am reflection,
Only me and the faint brightness of my laptop screen,
Only me and the whispers of the night breeze,
So soft that it can't shake the trees out of its slumber,
As procrastination takes over me like a cruel seductress,
And my laptop battery dies,
I realize how much I have ahead of me in the hours to come,
So instead of succumbing to the worries of tomorrow,
I meditate, on the desires of my mind swimming in a pool of my thoughts,
Being careful not to go to deep for the fear of drowning is all to real,
But I think to myself, how would it feel if I WERE to drown,
If I fell in and out of consciousness, would someone revive me?,
If I were to find something I put down there in the hopes of not seeing it again, would someone be able to save me from myself?,
And the more I think time slows down to the point of non-existance like I'm in a dream,
And the Inception feel to it is oh so tangible,
Another oxymoron, or is it, for how do we even know that this all exist,
And not a projection of our subconscious on to an imaginary world,
If so I'll gladly accept this dream as my reality no matter how unauthentic it may be,
I'm getting deep, like Alice falling into the rabbit hole I can't find a stop,
But why should I even try, and besides if I keep going I might just find one,
I should dive deeper into myself, but not in the vain sense,
I should dive deeper in the ocean, not physically but in the mental sense,
You must have to understand that the oceans of our minds live a scary existence,
You might be afraid to explore its limits a depths,
However, I realize that that's just what they fear.....
So many thoughts flooding my mind as I drift back to unconsciousness,
Therefore ending my 2am reflection...
