Lalisa Love Me (HunLisa Fanfiction)

EPILOGUE

EPILOGUE

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L A L I S A

It's been awhile but everything seems to went on smoothly for everyone.

I remember a few years ago before I went to Korea to pursue my passion, I have a lot of fears. I have a lot of doubts. I have a lot of questions.

Will I make it? Or will I go back? Or Will I succeed? Or everything I did and sacrifice will just be in vain?

I admit.. that many times I tried to give up.

The journey to become who I am now is not an easy one. If I ever look back, would I make the same choice go leave my country and pursue the unknown? I would.

Because that's who I am.

As a teenager, I like to take on the challenge. I can't believe the fruit of that challenge made me a coward as I grew. I got scared of all the loses and consequences for loving Oh Sehun. I made it this far.. but I love him so much as well.

"You're quiet." I stated as I squeezed Sehun's hand in my hand. "Scared?"

"This is my first time meeting your family." He stated as he stare at the colorful surroundings of Thailand.

We are currently on our way to my house in my hometown. It's been so long since the last time I went here and we are surprising my mother. I smirked as I anticipate her reaction. I bet she'll be quite shock!

"You think they'll like me?" Oh Sehun asked.

"I like you." I assured him the way he assured me when I met his family a few weeks ago.

His Mom is so warm and his Dad is very welcoming. He have a very simple and loving family. To be honest, I envy how they both cherish Sehun growing up. And I envy how he can get to visit them anytime he wants.

"I thought Sehun already gave up the thought of living a normal life after he debut." His Eomma said with tears in her eyes as she held me. "I'm glad he found you."

Hugging her feel so warm.

She's very nice and pretty but Sehun got his looks from his Appa who seems to be very cheerful. A sweet mother and a fun Dad. I wonder if Sehun and I would be just like that when we grew.. to have a family of our own.

"You know, my father left when I was a child." I told him as I watched him be in awe of the surrounding of my hometown. "That's my first heartbreak. That's when I got scared.. to feel what love is and the thought of having that feeling again.."

It's true.

Maybe that's one of the reason why I grew up like this. A girl with attachment issues, all those I let in my life, I cherished with all my heart.

My greatest fear was them leaving so those who wants to enter.. those who try to get close to me, I built up a wall somehow. I'm already satisfied with just me and my members.

I pushed Sehun away because I was scared that he would be the one to make a decision to leave.. so I made him.

"I will never leave you." He said as he caresses my cheek softly.

"I believe you." I said and smiled at him.

It was hard.

To suddenly live a life aside from the life that I already am used to. The life aside from me being an idol is the life that I have with Oh Sehun.

The fans were not that supportive at first. We acknowledge the fact that we indeed broke a lot of hearts. But what can we do? We can't love all of those hearts romantically when we only have one heart of our own? I wish everyone could understand that.