How I see you| Seungin✓

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Jeongin POV
7 A.M. In Hyunjin's large white bedroom I cuddled up to him on the bed, wrapping my arms around his shoulders in a back hug.

"Hmm.....did you sleep well honey?" I asked as I nuzzled my cheek into his.

"I always sleep well with you." He said in his rough morning voice, turning his head to look at me.

"Aww you're such a sweetheart jinnie." I smiled before kissing his cheek.

"Eh, I know, I'm the best." He smirked as he held his chin up high in mock confidence. I laughed at his cute expression as I squeezed his waist.

"So do you have any plans for today?" I asked. I hoped he'd say no but usually that wasn't the answer. I was right.

"No, I got to go to the office and look over some outfit designs." He replied as he got up from the bed, breaking my hold on his waist.

"See I don't get it, why do they need you for that?" I complained as I got up from the bed, following hyunjin into the bathroom, standing next to him in the mirror.

"I have more than just that to do, baby, I'm just summing it up for you, I know it sounds boring but it's got to be done." He said as he added the toothpaste to the brush.

"Ugh, but jinnie I miss you." I whined, grabbing his waist, back hugging him again. He grabbed my hand, pushing me away.

"Can you get me my coffee, I have to get Dressed." He said, not even looking back at me. I pressed my lips together.

"Um, yeah.......no cream right baby?"

"yup, just like every other day." He said before spitting into the sink. I looked at his irritated expression for a long moment. He looked so unhappy sometimes, but he would never let me know why, I wish he would just tell me. I wish he felt comfortable enough to vent to me. But I know that won't happen any time soon. He won't even tell me he loves me. We've been together for a year now. I used to tell him all the time but I feel so close to breaking when all I hear is silence in return, I say it a lot less lately.

I walked back up stairs with the coffee, turning down the long hall to jinnies room. As I walked into the room I was met with one of my favorite visuals. Hyunjin in a suit. He's so beautiful. I walked over to him, handing him his favorite coffee mug before I straightened his tie, giving him another kiss on the cheek.

"You've got such a beautiful smile hyunjin, why do you rob me of it." I asked glumly, never breaking my gaze away from his own. I wish he could understand how serious I was. I wish he knew how badly I wanted to be his. He looked down at me with no emotion. Like a statue.

"Sometimes there is no reason to smile." He said before he leaned down to kiss his lips to mine. My face completely dropped.

"Alright I'll be home a little late tonight, so don't wait up." He said before he went down stairs never giving me a second glance. I waited till I heard the front door open and close.

My eyes started to water, I walked to the bed falling onto my pillows before breaking into sobs. It doesn't matter what I say, or do, every day it's the same. Sex is the only thing that ever seems to keep him content. I wish he could find happiness in something else. In me. Not my body but me. I love him and it doesn't matter. It won't matter because it never does.