Ankahee baatein - RaghVi SS

Part 4 Understanding Her

Raghav was in his room. Glass in his hand but he is not able to drink it. Whenever he tried to drink he remembers pallavi's words not to drink. He is trying to avoid her voice and drink but all in vain. He feels he is betraying her by breaking his promise. He also tried to make a point. It is her who betrayed and left him but other voice say she never promised him to stay with him forever. It was his own beliefs.

Amma : kanna?

Raghav : arre amma aap yaha. Kuch kaam tha to mujhe bula leta

Amma : kyu main nahi aa sakta tujh se milne bina kaam ke

Raghav : mera matlab woh nahi tha. Aao baitho

Amma : tu firse drink kar raha hain?

Raghav : nahi koshish kar raha hain

Amma : Pallavi ne mana kiya uske liye nahi pi pa raha hain na?

Raghav : haan sayad

Amma : chal woh glass ko side par rakh aur neeche baith. Aaj main tujhe mast me tel malish karke dega. Kitna time ho gaya main apne bête ke saath time nahi bitaya hain. Bahut busy insaan ho gaya hain

Raghav sit on floor and amma started his malish. While putting hair oil on his hair she started to talk about their old time. They laugh cry remembering old days.

Amma : life aisa hi hota hain kabhi khushi kabhi gham type ka

Raghav : lekin khushi kam time rehta hain aur gham jyada time

Amma : main ek baat puchu? Sachi sachi jawab dega?

Raghav : haa amma puccho na

Amma : tu pallavi se naraz hain na?

Raghav : aisi baat nahi hain amma

Amma : to tu uska phone kyu nahi uthaya usse baat kyu nahi ki?

Raghav : woh main busy tha iske liye

Amma : raghav sach bol

Raghav sigh : amma mujhe nahi accha laga jaise woh chala gaya. Usne ek baar bhi nahi socha ke hum log ko kaisa lagega? Mujhe laga tha ke hum aur yeh shadi uske zindagi me kuch to mayne rakhte hain lekin usne ek jhatke me sab chhod diya. Kuch din me to woh bhul bhi jayegi ke hum log kabhi the bhi uski zindagi me. isi liye maine soch liya hain main bhi ab usse baat nahi karega.

Amma : ekdum sahi kiya tune. Kitni selfish hain pallavi. Kabhi bhi kisi aur ke bare me nahi sochati. Bas apna khushi dekha aur nikal gayi.

Raghav : aise mat bolo. Woh selfish nahi hain

Amma : selfish nahi hain to kya hain woh. Mera hi galti tha aisi ladki ke saath tera shadi karaya. Tune sahi decision liya hain tu kya main keerti aur farhaad usko bhi bold dugi ke uske saath baat na kare uska phone na uthaye aur agar samne kabhi aaye to aise behave kare ke woh hain hi nahi. Usko uski galti ki saja milni chahiye

Raghav : please uske bare me aise mat bolo. Woh buri nahi hain bahut acchi hain

Amma : acchi hogi apne deshmukh ke ghar par hamare saath galat kiya na

Raghav : haan galat to kiya hamare sath lekin woh apni family ko kitna miss kar rahi thi khas kar ke apne aayi baba ko to woh chali gayi unke saath

After saying this Raghav realise what did he said and what was his mother trying to convey

Amma : samja ab? Uss bacchii ne bahut khoya hain. Pehle apne maa baap ko fir apne pehle pati ko. Woh bada bindi to humesha peeche padi rehti hain aur tune bhi to uske izzat par daag lagaya tha aur uske baba ne hi usko ghar se bahar nikal diya tujh par bharosa kar ke. fir mere wajah se tune uske saath jabardasti shadi ki. woh family hi uski duniya ban chuki thi aur uske aayi baba main woh apne mare huye aayi baba ko dekhti hai. Tu hi khud soch tune khud ne mujhe aur keerti ko wapas yeh ghar me wapas lane ke liye uske saath galat kiya. Woh to apne aayi baba ke saath aisa kuch galat karke to nahi gayi hain. Aur usne apne bare me soch bhi liya to kya usne kuch galat kiya kya?

Raghav : nahi usne kuch galat nahi kiya

Amma : kanna main samaj sakta hain woh hamari zindagi me ek ahamiyat rakhta hain aur uske bina accha nahi lagega lekin hamari khushi ke liye uski khushi ko to nahi nazar andaz kar sakte na

Raghav : amma aapko bura nahi laga tha?

Amma : sach batau mujhe bhi bura laga tha lekin kahi na kahi main janta tha ke waise hoga. Jab pallavi ne bataya ke uske aayi baba aa rahe hain tabhi mujhe laga tha ke woh log usko lene aayege lekin jana ya nahi jana woh pallavi par tha aur woh uska decision hona chahiye tha. Iske liye jab usne haan bola tab maine react nahi kiya aur na usko roka. Agar woh mana karti aur fir bhi woh log jabardasti karte to main unko rokti lekin woh apni marzi se gaya hain to main uski khushi me khush hoon. Usne humesha dusaro ki khushi apni khushi ke upar rakhi hain to aaj uski khushi par hume khush hona chahiye

Raghav understood whatever his amma told him. after long pause he said

Raghav : aap sahi kahe rahi ho amma. Main hi selfish ho gaya tha apne gusse me pata nahi kya kya soch liya tha. Bichari mujhe aaj kitni baar phone kar rahi thi lekin maine uthaya hi nahi

Amma : Pallavi tujhe apna ek accha dost manti hain tu usse woh rishta usse mat chin. Aaj bhi jab usne call kiya tha woh upset lag raha tha kyuki tune usse baat nahi kiya tha

Raghav : theek hain amma aap main pallavi se baat karega kal

Amma : mera baccha sach me bada samajdar ho gaya hain. Chal abhi bahut raat ho gaya hain so ja

Amma was leaving when Raghav called her

Raghav : Amma. Ab Pallavi chala gaya hain to aap aur keerti bhi chala jayega na?

Raghav spoke with painful voice. He was looking down only and not looking at his mom with the fear of her answer. Today he lost pallavi and after her leaving his sister and mother has no reason to stay with him. he is scared to loose them also. Everything was going good until deshmukh took pallavi back

Amma feels bad with his question. His son suffered alone for last 10 years but not anymore.

Amma asked him to stand up and look at him. there was unshed tears in his eyes. she hugged him

Amma : main kidhar nahi jane wala hain apne bête ko chhodkar. Bahut reh liya woh akele aur bahut ro liya woh akele. Ab se nahi. Pallavi waha apne parivaar ke saath naya zindagi shuru kar raha hain aur hum yaha apna zindagi shuru karega. Aaj Pallavi ke liye vijay ji se kuch nahi bola lekin agli baar unhone ya kisi aur ne mere bête ko kuch bhi bola hain to main chup nahi baithega. Koi mere samne mere bête ki insult nahi kar sakta. Main bhi ek Don ka amma hain

Raghav hugged her back and cried his heart out. Whole day he was trying hard not to cry and controlling his tears with his anger but with his amma and her words he let it flow all those emotions. It will be hard but it is better to move on in life.