I don't care if anyone reads this or not or whether I'm going to publish it or not but oh my god I am so sick of my whole god damn life I really really want to die and not disappear but die so that I never have to experience this shit again. if I had the courage to kill myself I would have that a long time ago.
I wish in the nearest future there comes a day when I am so fucking sick of my life that I get the courage to jump from a tall building and kill myself.
My life might not be as hard as yours might be but I'm a coward I can't face my problems I run away from them. My life is very good. I have wonderful parents and friends I don't have a dream as I still had time as I'm in school but still I am very sick of this life, I'm sick of everything around I want to rest so badly and forever so that I don't need care about anything in the god damn world.
I know I tell I'm sick of everything but I don't even know why I sick of everything.
You know if anyone reads this please encourage me so that I will be able to kill myself in the future and don't try to stop me.
If I don't get the courage to kill myself in the future then I hope I really hope I get into an accident that kills me before I turn 15.
