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Jhene Aiko
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Dear, Hezekai
today you died. its been 11 years, 5 months, and 4 days since you died. June 16,2012. i always wonder what it feels like to be in heaven. i wonder how it feels to be so at peace. thats how I picture you. watching down on the people you love. i wonder how it feels. i wonder what the view is like up there for you.
constant grave visits. constant tears that fall down from my eyes down onto my pillow when i try to sleep at night. thinking why me. thinking of ways to see you. always enable to get out of my bed, ever since you left me. constantly thinking what did i do wrong? i repeatedly tell myself, keep faith. keep faith.
i want my peace too
i met a guy today. i went on a road trip with him. i wasnt too sure where we were going but we got far. you could call it an adventure i guess. I know it was stupid to go with a stranger but he meant no harm and i didnt care. throughout the 'adventure' we did some shrooms and smoked marijuana. doing this to escape all of our problems. to escape all of my problems. doing things that broke our promises. everything you said i shouldnt do, i did it. all of this for you, to get closer to you.
the other night i found myself taking a tiny peice of paper and putting it under my tounge. this guy said itd be fun. it was. i was lost in my thoughts. in the drugs. i saw you. i knew it wasnt real. but i still told my self it was. i didnt want to panic. yet i didnt want to seem schizo in front of all of these people.
the man i met wanted to take advantage of me. so he left me here. alone. to die. i wanted to call you but i knew you wouldnt pick up. i wanted to run home but i knew you werent gonna be there. so i sit. against the wall wondering how will i get home. worried but not so much because i knew you werent gonna be there to greet me at the door, tell me goodnight, keep me entertained.
all i wanted was peace, was to find my peace.
please save me..
sincerly, Devanii
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𝗂𝗆 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝗋𝗈𝖽𝗎𝖼𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗆𝗒 𝗇𝖾𝗐 𝖻𝗈𝗈𝗄 𝖳𝗋𝗂𝗉 𝗂𝗇𝗌𝗉𝗂𝗋𝖾𝖽 𝖻𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝖩𝗁𝖾𝗇𝖾 𝖠𝗂𝗄𝗈 𝖺𝗅𝖻𝗎𝗆 𝖳𝗋𝗂𝗉． 𝗍𝗈 𝗍𝖾𝗅𝗅 𝖺 𝗌𝗍𝗈𝗋𝗒 𝗈𝖿 𝖾𝖺𝖼𝗁 𝗍𝗋𝖺𝖼𝗄 𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗉𝗎𝗍 𝗂𝗍 𝗂𝗇𝗍𝗈 𝖺 𝖻𝗈𝗈𝗄．
