Strings attached |Twice x Female reader (Discontinued.)

How worse will it get?

A/N: Here's a bucket for my late update, Idk when I will be back, USE THE BUCKET I HAVE SEEN SO MUCH CRYING EMOJIS.

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Stares. stares. stares.

It's been a few hours since school had started, and I've been seeing eyes all targeted towards me lately.

All of them had one emotion; disgust.

I heaved a breath, trying to control my breathing as I sat up, trying to get my attention towards Mr. Kim, who doesn't seem to notice my presence.

'I should've known, I should've gotten used to this by now, and yet..'

My nightmares have been getting worse, I could tell by the way I could recount them each and every single time. It haunts me.

I can't focus.

*BANG!*

The sound of the bell made me snap out of my thoughts as I jolted up from the loud noise, only to realise that I was the only one in the classroom.

I clutched my head, covering my ears, eyes slowly watering as I felt myself shiver from some wind that doesn't even exist.

'Why am I like this?' I asked myself, silently chuckling as I heaved a shaky breath.

'I was so lively, I was so confident about something, why am I losing that..?' I knew that I couldn't find the answer that I wanted, all I could do was sit on my chair and think.

Think.

Think.

Think.

Once I looked up, it wasn't even the classroom, but the kingdom that I entered in my dreams. The sound of birds singing, and people chattering enter my ears as I heaved a breath, seemingly to calm down about my current state. Feeling the warm winds, I let out a small chuckle as I felt the sun's rays hitting my whole body.

A hand grabs my own. It was Ji-eun's, she opens her mouth yet no words came out of it.

The scene changes, again, and again, and again.

All of them were all Ji-eun, trying to talk to me, one time, she was distressed, another was excited, and the last one was fear.

Everything is going by too fast, my head can't comprehend anything that is happening, even I could feel my lungs constrict slightly.

The scene changes, yet this time it was different. It never changes again.

I..

was facing her...?

A strong tap of my shoulders made me snap away from my thoughts, as I clutched my chest, feeling it hurt slightly, I could hear it pounding against my skin as I gripped the table with my other hand.

"Y/N? Are you okay?" A voice asks me, her voice soft like the wind, I let out a small sigh as I look back, only to see Mina, looking at me with concern, her lips were on a small frown, her eyes furrowed. I let out a small nod as I smiled, though it was forced.

"Don't worry about it, Ms. Myoui." I whispered trying to reassure her. "You just startled me, please don't worry about it." I hummed as I relaxed slightly trying to ease her worries.

"... I see," Mina whispers as she begins to talk about something, my ears can't pick anything up, as if it was replaced by white noise.

'Why am I doing this? Why am I reassuring her?' I asked myself, nodding at her statement that I couldn't care to comprehend.

'I'm supposed to hate them, Lisa told me that they are making bets on me.' I thought to myself, as I laughed slightly earning a small worried gaze from the other, I just waved her off.

'And yet.. why do I hate that look of worry on her face? No, most importantly.. why do I care about Twice? I.. never intended to be close with them.. right?' 

Everything had dawned upon me as I stood up, smiling slightly.

"Sorry, Ms. Myoui, I.. need to go to the cafeteria, I haven't eaten anything yet." I smiled as I teleported away from the room leaving Mina confused, yet worried at the same time.

As I reappeared at the cafeteria, I felt a small hint of sadness, I could hear Ryujin's small chats as she drags me here.

That was all in the past, right?

All I could feel now, was the dreaded stares that are slowly aiming at me; a low ranked person.

Why does this hurt more than in the past? 

I walked towards a table, everyone, walks away from me.

As if I'm such a disgusting creature.

I sat down on a table, not before grabbing an apple, and eating it, all I could think about are the stares that I'm receiving.

'You're being sensitive, you'll get used to it.' I said to myself, as I peacefully ate my apple, sitting alone at the lunch table, while being stared at silently wasn't the best possible feeling.

"Hey." A tap of my shoulder made me pause, as I turned around, seeing my friend; I smiled as I saw her, knowing that she was worried for me.

"Did.. can we talk later? Maybe in a classroom, everyone has been giving us dirty looks, especially at you." She whispers; leaning down onto my ear as I let out a tired sigh, gripping onto the apple slightly.

I didn't vocalise my response as I nodded, I could feel my tears slowly prickle my eyes.

Silently we both disappeared from the cafeteria and into a classroom, I sat down on one of the chairs as I felt her hug behind me, almost in a comforting way.

".. I'm sorry I brought you into this, I should've never.. initiated anything towards the royals.." Lisa apologises as I let my tears fall.

"No, I should be sorry, I.. I'm being over dramatic aren't I?" I asked while laughing, grabbing one of her hands, and tapping it once.

"You aren't." She shook her head, sighing. "This was way worse than the past, you were ignored, but this time, they are looking at you with disgust, that it.." She pauses, I took a shaky breath as I hummed.

"That it hurts, right? They all looked at me, like I'm some sort of disgusting human being that they all don't like. As if I don't belong to be walking with them." I sighed as I sniffled slightly, nearly sobbing my eyes out.

".. Still.." I looked at Lisa, and then looked at the window, seeing the rays entering the room, and lighting it.

"Tell me, did you also received any... stares like this?" I asked, wiping my tears, as I laughed, though it was shaky, and nearly broken. I heard a small silence from her, then she heaved a sigh.

"No." She said, breaking the back hug and sitting towards a chair beside me, I looked at her confused, yet she was looking at me, a small worried frown was on her face.

"I.. have the others protecting me, they all.. sort of went on a rampage when the other students were looking at me with disgust.." She chuckles, as I laughed, clearly this lifted the mood a bit.

"Jennie, and Jisoo made a threat as well, so.. I feel like they won't look at me weirdly anymore.." She finishes making me laugh more. Lisa seemed happy with the mood lift as she laughs with me.

I looked at her cheerful face, as I smiled solemnly, leaning onto my hand.

'Friends.. I wish I had that before Ryujin left..'