I Saved My Heroes (Fifth Harmony/You)

Chapter Thirteen

A/N
Sorry for late updates! I've been moving into a new house and we have a lot of stuff to unpack. Thank you for being so patient. i love you all!

Your P.O.V.

I lost track of time, I've been walking around my neighborhood trying to let myself guide me where I need to be. Its kind of hard when you can't even find yourself. I just want to go back, be that normal girl who the closest she got to being known was when Syrah would beat her in front of everyone. Yet, my name is everywhere I never thought it would be. On the news, talk shows, and even in famous people's mouths. I should be loving the idea, but I find myself terrified. Always wondering what people are saying about me, worried if they are calling me a "hero", worried if they will expect more from me. It was all terrifying.

I decided to stop at a park that was next to our neighborhood lake, It was beautiful at night. I always used to come here when I needed some release, from Syrah, from life, from Vico. Damn, I never thought i'd think about him ever again.

I sat down on a bench and pulled out a cigaret along with my lighter. Mario had been supplying me with them when I need more.

I placed this cigaret in between my lips and lit it. Its crazy how something that kills people could help me.

"Y/N?" I hear someone call from behind me. I instantly remember that voice.

"I'm busy here Camila." I said taking another inhale of the cancer stick.

"Are you smoking a cigaret? Y/N what the hell?" Camila yells sitting next to me on the bench. She reaches for the cig but I move her hand away.

"Stop Y/N, that thing kills people."

"Then we have something in common." I said emotionless.

"For fucks sake Y/N stop!" She yells louder causing me to jump and the cigaret to fall on the ground. Before I could pick it back up Camila placed her foot over it and crushed it.

"Why are you here Camila? I need time to myself." I groan sitting back on the bench looking at the playground.

"We all went separate ways to look for you, luckily I found you first."

"And why is that?" I asked looking towards her.

"Because if your mom or the others saw you smoking, they wouldn't be as nice as I was." She said folding her arms.

"I can't help it, it helps me."

"You could die Y/N." Camila said with her voice cracking a little, I know she was on the verge of crying.

"I don't care, It'll save me the trouble." I mumble. I mentally slap myself once I saw the look on Camila's face, she was crying now.

"Do you really wanna die? You think that'll solve anything? You'll just make everyone who cares about you suffer, you wont be doing anything but destroying the family you worked so hard to get. Please don't think like that Y/N, I can't go back to worrying if you are going to die or not, not again." Camila was bursting into tears, it was my fault.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I just, I-I..." I couldn't form my words right, I didn't want to open up.

"Y/N? Its okay, you can talk to me." Camila said placing her hand on my shoulder. At that moment I felt comfortable, I trusted her.

"Vic-"

"Y/N! Oh my god!" I was interrupted by Normani's voice. I looked behind me to see Normani and the three other girls behind her, running towards me.

"Please don't do that ever again!" Dinah said once the four girls engulfed me in the same bone crushing, but heartwarming hug I loved so much. Camila was still just sitting next to me.

"Why'd you leave?" Lauren asked once we all let go of each other. I wanted to tell them about him, but I didn't want to remember. I haven't told anyone about him. I told Alex and Jacob that I had a bad relationship with a guy. I didn't want to lie but I couldn't, wouldn't talk about him.

"I needed air." I half lied. I did need air, but that wasn't the whole story.

"Whats that smell?" Dinah asked sniffing the air a couple times before moving closer to me. I glanced at Camila and she had a 'thats-what-you-get' look. I sighed out, preparing myself for the lecture I was going to receive.
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"So we scheduled an appointment with your therapist tomorrow at 12pm after your doctors appointment." Ally explained as the girls and I piled in my room, while Alex, Jacob and my mom cleaned downstairs. My dad and Dana had went out to my grandparents because they were sick.

"Okay thank you." I said sitting down on my bed.

"Are you okay?" Lauren asked and I nodded.

"Alright, well we will see you in a month?" Normani asked knowing I never gave an answer yet.

"My paren-"

"We asked them, they said its fine." Dinah explained.

"Well then i'll see you in a month." I smiled and all the girls tackled me with a hug. Every giggle, every scream made my heart burst with love. Its so weird how five girls who never knew I existed a few months ago, became my best friends.

"We love you, never forget that." Ally said as we laid down sprawled across my bed.

"Never."